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You (S Club 7)

2009-09-21T19:21:00.002+09:30

You are all I need to get me through (get me through now baby)
Like a falling star I fell for you (I fell for you)

Sweet anticipation
It's giving me the butterflies
And my heartbeat's racing
Cos loving you is beautiful
When you're so irresistible

So don't stop (don't stop)
What you're doing baby
So good (so good) And it drives me crazy
One touch (who-ho-hoo)
I'm in heaven, yeah
Cos loving you is so beautiful baby cos...

You are all I need to get me through (to get me through now)
Like a falling star I fell for you (I fell for you now)
You have taught me how to love
An angel sent from high above
Now I know that all I need is you

Cos I need you and you need me
And we'll always be together
I thought I knew what love was
I always ended up in tears
It's just the way my world was
Until you walked into my life
It's something that I just can't hide

Real love (real love)
Has come my way
And I know (I know)
That it's here to stay
And it feels (who-ho-hooo)
Like never before
Cos loving you is so beautiful baby cos...

You are all I need to get me through (to get me through now)
Like a falling star I fell for you (I fell for you now)
You have taught me how to love
An angel sent from high above
Now I know that all I need is you

Cos I need you and you need me
And we'll always be together

Cos I need you and you need me
And we'll always be together
You're my inspiration
My world just seems a brighter place
I just wanna tell you
I've never ever felt this way
I've never thought I'd see the day

Real love (real love)
Has come my way
And I know (I know)
That it's here to stay
And it feels (who-ho-hooo)
Like never before
Cos loving you is so beautiful baby cos...

You are all I need to get me through (to get me through now)
Like a falling star I fell for you (I fell for you now)
You have taught me how to love
An angel sent from high above
Now I know that all I need is...

You are all I need to get me through (get me through now baby)
Like a falling star I fell for you (I fell for you)
You have taught me how to love
An angel sent from high above
Now I know that all I need is you

Making a difference to others' lives =)

2009-09-21T02:00:00.005+09:30

Anyway, Suyi has also decided to opt for Commerce when she goes to uni next yr. I have told her numerous times that whatever decisions she makes and will make in future, she can count on my full moral support. Deep inside my heart, I just know she aspires to be a doctor and i know she will make a fabulous doctor. However, due to some reasons, she decides to take Commerce. Since you have decided, go for it! =)

I actually feel that ambitions/aspirations and knowing what we want in life are strongly correlated. Recently, a few friends actually approached me to ask about this...At that instant, I thought what my good friend, Mark told me three yrs back(when I was 18). I can still remember the scene where we had that convo very well.
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(2006, University of Adelaide campus)
Mark: Mingchien, I know you have many other friends who have taught you many things in life. Glad to know you have a long-term ambition to fulfil. However, do you know what leads to you knowing what you want to be in the future?

Mi: I guess, it's because of my passion.

Mark: Yes your passion is one impt factor, but do you know the purpose of the ambition you are harbouring?

Mi: The purpose you mean?

Mark: Yes, that purpose I referred to is your goal in life. This goal also answers the question of your purpose of living. Answers why we are working so hard, what are we striving hard for. Or else, you have no direction in life. Mingchien, to understand your ambition well, you have to find this purpose, in other words, what you want in life. Start thinking about this early will do you good.
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'There is a saying: Without vision, the people perish.'

Ever since, I thought a lot, searching deep inside myself. I even asked some of my friends about theirs. I felt one of my friends' answer to be altruistic. She said, she wants to make a difference to mankind. She was doing Science degree and she aspires to be a researcher and wants to be in the research of finding cure for AIDS patients.

But how I eventually find my purpose? I searched deep inside myself, reflecting on how I feel about the events and issues surrounding me, and how I can be a good individual at present and in the future.

What kind of characters you possess or you think you might possess? (A fundamental question in order to determine it)
What you hope to do now and in the future that will give you the sense of accomplishment and satisfaction?
What do you strongly feel about?
Your passion plays an important role as well.

But finding this purpose requires time, this includes the time required to know yourself. I took 2 yrs plus to find it. The title is the answer i have found for myself. Making a difference to others' lives. Be it a friend, spouse or others, be compassionate to people around u. Knowing what you have done has made the other parties happy, makes me happy. That's when i enjoy true happiness. This purpose in life, in which we are trying to find, tends to be sth simplistic yet powerful.

Just like what Mark always said to me, everytime he taught me about things in life, 'You do not need to realise or fully understand what I told you, you need time to realise that all these make sense.'

I guess, he left a big impact on many of my thoughts in life. Take your time, dun think so much, eventually you will find your answer to what you want in life. Work and play hard =)

=)

2009-09-21T01:06:00.003+09:30

Alright, my first blog entry as a 21-yr old...Received a lot of birthday wishes from everyone, be it via facebook or sms or better still. This year, me and YS decided that due to our busy timings, we did not organise any major bashes for our 21st. For mi, family issues were the major reason for me not to organise anything. I was having a long-distance sms convo with Suyi about what happened to our grandpa and our mum. Mum might have a suspected lump at her neck area, and she has to undergo surgery to determine the detriments of this lump.

While my grandpa is terminally ill and bed-ridden in hospital, everyone in my family were 'mobilised' to take care of him. I have to confess here that, whenever I go to visit him, seeing how feeble he was, makes mi so miserable. Sometimes, I always have second thoughts of stop visiting to stop myself from getting miserable time and time again. However, I admire him for his determination to live ever since his cancer was discovered to have spreaded to other parts of his body two yrs back. How I wish he can pull thru this as well. Suyi and I were both worried for these two people that are dear to us in this family. I feel for Suyi too, my current hope is that things will improve and will not affect Suyi's mood when she turns 18 next mth. =) Dun worry, meimei, we will take care of everything here. =)

More than Words (Westlife)

2009-09-20T23:10:00.002+09:30

Long to play this song on a guitar...even though I am not a guitarist myself. If I happen to pick up playing the guitar, the first song I will make it a point to play will be this song. =) Long-time favourite

Saying I love you,
Is not the words,
I want to hear from you,
It's not that I want you,
Not to say but if you only knew,
How easy,
it would be to show me how you feel,

More than words,
is all you have to do, to make it real,
Then you wouldn't have to say,
that you love me,
Cause I'd already know,
What would you do, if my heart was torn in two,

More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,
What would you say,
if I took those words away,

Then you couldn't make things new,
Just by saying I love you,
It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
oh yeah,
It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
oh yeah,
Now that I've tried to,
talk to you and make you understand,
All you have to do,
is close your eyes,
And just reach out your hands,
and touch me,
Hold me close don't ever let me go,
More than words,
is all I ever needed you to show,
Then you wouldn't have to say, that you love me,
Cause I'd already know,
What would you do,
if my heart was torn in two,
More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,
What would you say,
if I took those words away,
Then you couldn't make things new,(no no)
Just by saying I love you.....

Oh well....

2009-09-03T22:54:00.000+09:30

Ya been 6 mths since I last submitted an entry...So there was an urge specially this day to blog. Been in NS for 6 months, experiencing jungle, weapon, obstacle and fitness training....and experiencing the feeling of having to get out of training. It just take a back problem to cause my exit from combat training. However since in camp, when u and ur friens were having convo, one of the common topics will be university. Hmmm, a few of my friends came to ask me about my course in Australia and the learning lifestyle in a foreign place.
However, one superior of mine ytd said sth to me that gave me an impression that he did not know what studying in uni is about...Getting a Bachelor degree in something means being majoring or specialised in tt aspect and it does not mean I am supposed to know everything upon wearing the graduation gown and hat.
But for 6 months, I really miss everything in Adelaide especially those uni days. Those days when we went for lectures tgt, even crashing lects (no one except mi has this kind of habit). There was one particular day when I can still remember...I was rushing for Auditing lect at Horace Lamb lecture theatre...I called Tinyik and asked him to help me 'chope' a seat. He replied 'ok, dun worry we will get the BEST seat for you' Instantly, i knew they were up to something...Then when I arrived at the lect theatre, just as expected, they put mi to sit wif another friend of mine...I saw them laughing and giggling at the upper rows, and told mi that Fiona left the 'BEST SEAT' for mi....oh crap....haha and so then everyone also knew it....crap crap and more crap!

ok, tired signing out

Hear, Talk, Prepare and now, Experience

2009-03-10T23:58:00.003+10:30

Time flies, been two months since I last wrote an entry. Two days to enlistment and so here we are. Over the past four years in Australia, listening to your friends' experience in NS, talking and preparing for it. And now, it is my turn to acquire my own experience. I guess, after two years, me too can share with people my experiences. Been receiving numerous 'briefings' on NS, on what to do and what not to do...basically advices here and there! Just then I realised that I cant bring all these advices with me. Too much advices is going to clog up ur brain and the functionality of the nervous system will be undermined. Come to think of it, I am coming to terms with what my friend Mark tell me, just dun care about advices, just do it and get the hand-on experiences. Advices are valuable and beneficial but if it gets redundant, one will hold back their actions and any future executions will be deferred and suitable timing to execute will slip thru our hands. Analysing reflects how cautious a person is, but excessive analysing will lead to indecisiveness and actions that were to be executed will be held back.
In the past, I always defended my position of being over-analytical of things thru the point of making astute and informed decisions in life as people usually argues that with over-analytical comes indecisiveness. However, coming to think of it now, I realised that there come to times that a person has to be decisive. A person decisive enough to act swiftly, but the feat will be whether this person is able to make a good decision while being decisive simultaneously.
My conclusion is that a person has to strike a balance between decisiveness and being analytical. The bottom line for this argument in my inner self will be to be think in an astute and informed fashion, and not frivolous ones. At least, this is something I need to equip myself with for the future to come.
There are just so many question marks in my head, and this is one of them. But I believe for this particular question, NS will be the place for the answer to be sought. Till then, on with NS preparations..Tata

A long day of catching up (wif Long-time-no-see friens)

2009-01-08T08:02:00.005+10:30

Was planning to write this blog last night the moment I came back home, but I was so drained to do anything other than falling asleep.
Yesterday I spent most of my days outside, went for dental appointment and then popped by my cousins' place to say hi to my two cousins since the clinic is so near to their place. After that, I proceeded to meet Jinwei, my ex-colleague from MOF. It was in the late afternoon and I went so famished that we went to Shokobu restaurant which is at the basement of Raffles City for late lunch. Then we went scouting for clothings around the City Hall region. I fancy the shirts they sold at Topman, but we have to understand that the clothings sold around the region was so ex, bearing in mind that my finance was overstretched in recent history. However, I did not go home empty-handed. I bought a pair of cufflinks @ Robinsons for $35. Well, quite a reasonable price, thanks to the advice of Jinwei. Or else I will have spent $80+ on cufflink at another shop, which was not worthwhile. And so we walked from Raffles City to Suntec City and finally stopped at Marina Square. Apparently, one store @ Marina Square selling good polos that has caught my attention. Might go there and have a look again. Was tempted to make frivolous decisions of buying tops when it comes to 'scouting' ytd (a new term I have set when it comes to looking for clothings)
Then sat down at Starbucks and had a long discussion or convo wif him on career matters, well at least our endeavors of getting a job and exchange of knowledge of the current job market.
After that, I went to PS to meet up wif Tze Peng, a bud I have not met up wif for 2 yrs!!!!! Walked to and fro PS and the youchakuey store near Paradiz Shopping Centre....simply because we had so much things to catch up on after two yrs.
And ya also due to the need of applying the financial concepts we have learnt in uni (or else it will rot after NS), I have put in S$200 (don put in $2000) to invest in pounds. I can only devote that much because of the scarcity of financial resources just as mentioned...hmmm pls appreciate, GBP!

Mahjong Course....

2009-01-06T09:22:00.002+10:30

Gosh! It is 7am and here I am blogging. This is so random, I woke up at 6am. Not feeling obligated to wake up so early and yet, here I am sitting on the chair, feeling energised. To think, as a normal student, I will always feel reluctant to wake up so early to prepare for school. But now, really for the first time, I have no school to attend to now. My mum will always feel amazed by my wake-up time in recent-history.
So woke up sending email to a frien, taking into consideration the time difference between here and Adelaide.

And yes, ytd, after going to Driving Centre to book for BTT for foreign conversion, I went to Vanessa's place for mahjong. You all shld noe, for learning anything, you will have 'jiao xue fei'. Mahjong, too, was not spared from this saying. I had a few times coming close to 'hu-ing' but I won 0 rounds in the end, taking into account that that was my second time playing and somemore with 'tai'. Milk and Alex taught me the 'gai-tai' version, I thought when I first played mahjong at their house.

Then went home, while encountering both traffic jams on the road and on the MRT track. The MRT system going to Pasir Ris then was stuck as there were a crowd of people clotting up the platform at Clementi MRT. So mi and a frien decided to board the train at the other platform to Jurong, to avoid the congestion. Den so boarding the Pasir Ris train at Jurong, realising my slippers were stepped on by people for many times in the process of boarding. Then I realised I should have bought a smaller pair of slippers in Melbourne back then; bought a size-twelve instead of size-ten....GOsh, I fell down at the platform.

Dandelion's Promise 蒲公英的約定-Jay Chou

2009-01-05T10:31:00.004+10:30

My friend once told mi, at least for once there will always be a tune or a song that will remind you of a particular person or even any events in life that had happened to you in Australia. This song really brings back fond memories of my time in Adelaide, and has also become one of the favourites of a few of us, including myself.
A nice song, really bai ting bu yan!

With English Transalation:

小學籬芭旁的蒲公英　是記憶裡有味道的風景
The dandelion next to the hedge in our elementary school
is a flavored and fragrant memory that’s worth savoring.

午睡操場傳來蟬的聲音　多少年後也還是很好聽
The chirps of cicadas on the playground flowed into our siesta
The sound is still mellifluous, after so many years.

將願望折紙飛機寄成信　因為我們等不到那流星
Come fold our wishes into paperplanes and letters
Because we cannot wait for the coming of shooting stars

認真投決定命運的硬幣　卻不知道到底能去哪裡
With all your heart, throw the coin that would determine our fate
though never knowing, where it goes and where it will take us

＃一起長大的約定　那樣清晰　打過勾的我相信
Our promise about growing up together, in stark clarity.
I believe in deals made with interlocked fingers

說好要一起旅行　是妳如今　唯一堅持的任性
We said we would go travelling together
and that is the only willful consistency I can find in you now

在走廊上罰站打手心　我們卻注意窗邊的蜻蜓
On the corridor, our palms were slapped as punishment
but we only noticed the dragonfly on the window ledge

我去到哪裡妳都跟很緊　很多的夢在等待著進行
Wherever I went, you followed closely
Many dreams were waiting to be realized

Repeat ＃

一起長大的約定　那樣真心　與妳聊不完的曾經
Our promise about growing up together, in sincerity,
a ‘once’ that we could not stop talking about

而我已經分不清　妳是友情　還是錯過的愛情
though I can no longer tell whether it is friendship
or a love that has slipped through my fingers

Here we are in Jan 2009....

2009-01-04T22:30:00.003+10:30

Every time I update my blog, I will always start with: It has been ages since I last updated my blog.

After 3 mths of inactivity, here you go....Ushering in the new year 2009, here in Singapore now, awaiting for enlistment. Yesterday evening, knowing that my friends were having a gathering in Adelaide, I made a long-distance call to Fuilin and utilising her phone to speak to everyone in the gathering. Glad to hear their voices once more...specially during this period of time when I am starting to miss every single one of my friends back there. Sounds sappy I know, and I hate to admit it.

We talked over the phone for quite a while....Then after the call, I started to reminisize all the recent events that had happened over my last few weeks in Adelaide.

Going down the memory lane....
(Feel free to read the trilogy titled: The Clock turns back, pictures were also uploaded!)

Ok, welcome back to Jan 2009, and 4 yrs in Adelaide has officially ended. Frm Bradford College to University of Adelaide. 8th Jan 2005, the day when I left my comfortable home in Singapore for an environment which was totally unfamilar to mi. This will be the day that will always be remembered. Cant imagine then a 17-year old young boy left for Aust. and returned as a 20-yr old uni graduate. I will say that MingChien was considered pre-mature then to study overseas, but for the past four yrs, he learned a lot of things from his friends and matured over this process.

Truthfully from his heart, he says to all of his friends 'It has been a wonderful four years, not bad, not bad at all!'

Now, bearing in mind that the challenges he will face in NS and also in turn working life, he will face them positively and with fervour optimism, pledging that any challenges will not weaken him but will further strengthen his resolve. And so, enough of studies for now, Bring on National Service!

The clock turns back III: Farewell Party 2008 and Graduation 2008 (Adelaide)

2009-01-04T21:17:00.020+10:30

My dad came down to Adelaide on the 12th of December to attend my convocation on the 19th...But there was the Farewell party event the next day, with all of my coursemates and this time finally we could meet Tinyik after such a long time since the last gathering we have had. Went to Kbox after a dessert session at Pancake House and a few rounds of 'Mafia'...it was a much larger mass gathering than the last one in end-Nov.

(The 'characters' in Farewell Party 2008)

The guys @ the Party: Mi, Lincoln,Tinyik and Edwin

Ok, Tinyik wat was tt for? :D

Then there was this China song which happens to be both Edwin's and my favourite..titled Xiang Tian Jie Wu Bai Nian. We tried to sing it but the pitch of the song was so high that we couldnt hit the notes and being caught breathless. We ended up ROFL instead of singing it to the end.
We spent the night till 1 to 2.30am.

Enuff of the Party, then 6 days later was the day that had come after 20 yrs of patience and basic education: Uni Convocation 2008.

Lincoln, 'Ex-Health Minister, M'sia'

The 'Flower' Gang, lolx!

Wif my cousins and sister

This is our moment!

Wif Fiona

Wif Shuai while returning our gowns and hats!

After the ceremony and spending the last moments with coursemates, I joined my cousins and sister for a graduation lunch @ Ding Hao! Thx for the treat! Then followed by a lan game of CS, haha! Den off to Chiangwei, Yan and Kim's Convocation @ Adelaide Convention Centre.

It was a sweaty, busy day in Adelaide, travelling from Uni to Chinatown, den to the Convention Centre, indirectly moving around two different venues of convocation, having to cover a long distance.

Well, with the end of a busy day of attending convocations, my sis and I rushed back home for packing for the Gold Coast trip the next day, and Singapore (after the trip). I brought the 'whole room' of clothings and a few important books back, so all of you can imagine how heavy was my luggage? And so, there goes 19th Dec 2008; my last day in Adelaide.

(Will talk about Gold Coast another time) Back to the Present: Jan 2009!

The clock turns back II: Early-dec 2008 (Adelaide)

2009-01-04T20:23:00.008+10:30

Auditing was a subject I dreaded the most, with me racking my brain throughout the 12-week semester over how to deal with this particular course in uni. The lecturer also proved himself as the most nothing-to-do person I have ever come across in uni history. He just failed so many of my friends for plagiarism with regards to our first Auditing Assignment.
One of my friens (anonymous) even went to the extent of shredding tears, which did not make mi feel gd eitherat that time.
And so on the 2nd of December, the final verdict of my eligibility to graduate lies on the outcome of Auditing. I went to the school lab to check my results with Devern. And here comes the defining moment, when I knew I passed the course of Auditing, I lied down on the floor of the school lab and screamed. It was just so emotional for me, and I wasnt able to contain it! After 20 yrs of education (both in Singapore and Australia), all the hard work had paid off. It wasnt just about the last 3 yrs of education, but also about the last 20.
So, with that our graduation celebration events commences, Hula came back to Adelaide, carrying the thought that she had to retake the Auditing paper. However, the lecturer passed her and her purpose of returning had been replaced with holidays and sightseeing of Rundle Mall in Adelaide haha!

With Fuilin and Hula at David Jones, enjoying Boost)

That happened after I had helped Shuning with her luggage as she returned from Melbourne (and wat a pity, u din bring back Crispy Creme from Mel?! waHaha). Then rushed off to meet Fuilin and Hula(mentioned), she subequently passed her Auditing and off we went to celebrate by walking around Rundle Mall. In fact, she was one of three fortunate pple that day who initially had to sit for sups, but passed in the end without the need of retaking.

On another event, went to this prominent Vietnamese restaurant (selling marvellous cold rolls) wif Kwong, Edwin and Hellen for dinner. The business was so good that there were a pack of people waiting at the counter for vacant seats. If my memory did not serve me wrong, we took 20 to 30 mins of our life waiting....

Wif Kwong and Edwin...
Kwong and Edwin then calculated that I was the one who ate the most number of cold rolls and the one with the fastest pace of consuming the ingredients...Kwong even dubbed mi as 'the no. 1 person whom he will not desire to be with when a famine breaks out' haha!

A closer shot...

(to be cont.)

The clock turns back I: 2 mths ago (Adelaide)

2009-01-04T18:15:00.016+10:30

And we are back in end-Nov 2008!
This post-exam period (from end-Nov 2008 to Dec 2008) has proven itself to be the most hectic celebration period out of my entire tertiary life or even my entire studying life (from kindergarden till now).
Here comes the first page of the story....after the exams, we have to wait for a time when Tinyik was free to come out. Come to think of it, he is like a modern-day Cinderella. Finally that day came, so we drove to Spats to have desserts and who knew that we still were not contented with what we had enjoyed. Thus we went back to Chinatown to have supper at Ming's Steamboat.
Us coursemates suppering at Ming's Steamboat
(left to right: Daphne, Fiona, Mi, Hellen, Edwin, Tinyik and Fuilin)

Uni coursemates/ Bradford College friens, known them for 4 yrs: (from left to right: Fuilin, Hellen and Edwin)

And that was the first mass gathering after the exams, we had pretty much fun that day, the highlight of that outing was that Tinyik was bomb-blasted with so many qns regarding someone!!! Haha, and Hellen was such a great questioner/ interrogator, constantly putting our poor Tinyik on the spot. However, that was how fun was generated that night. The euphoria finally ended at 2am, with the two drivers (Edwin and mi) driving pple home.

Of course, celebrations did not stop there, during that period of time, usually during the weekdays, Edwin will jio mi to his house quite frequently to trade shows, this includes several HK dramas such as Jia Hao Yue Yuan, Tang Xing Fong Bao and Gem of Life. Throughout this celebration period, I hung out pretty much with Edwin and Hellen, for the several visits I had made to their house.

Yes, next, sumptuous lunches wif Edwin and Hellen, but this particular one was also wif John, sending him off as he was flying back to KL.

Wif John and Edwin @ Cafe Kowloon, Chinatown

And here were the members of the lunch that day
(l to r: Mi, Edwin, Hellen, Daphne, John)
Subsequent celebration events happened for the next few weeks, but that was basically what happened in end-Nov 2008.

Blog Raised From the Grave of Inactivity

2008-10-12T21:59:00.002+10:30

Ages since I last submitted a blog entry, which was about 1 year ago. I just could not imagine the so-many things that had happened over that one-year which was not mentioned in this blog. Of course, things happened and many things changed over the past one year of the inactivity of this blog. It was only a few days ago when my friend and I were talking about random blogs and the option of updating my blog materialised at the back of my mind.

Also that one year also mean that my interest of blogging was worn out for the past one yr and thank goodness, it returned. And so, maybe to make my blog more interesting for readers, especially myself in future, I shall not only recount what I had done for the past period of time, but also include some thoughts on random things which can be valuable topics up for discussion.

All right since this is the new course of direction for my blog, hopefully this will inject 'vitality' into this blog.

The past one week marks the inception of the last four weeks of school b4 the start of SWOT VAC and the last exam period of my tertiary study. This past one week has overseen our Auditing mid-term test which was very tricky and also the submission of Options Assignment on CFDs. On the weekend, there was a mini-break for me after the stressful preparation for the test and the assignment. Without the break, my head can 'certainly' scatter into many fragments. Yesterday there was a Singapore Association dinner of handover, basically it was just another professional excuse of an opportunity to socialise with pple whom you are not familar with. Apparently the occasion ended at 11pm as everyone rushed back home to watch 'Eurotrip'. Of course, some of the interesting topics that was discussed throughout the dinner were European languages, and fond memories of our school days back in Singapore.

Was talking to this person seated to me about European languages, and apparently he is a French Eurasian. Thus we had this interesting discussion over French and German, particularly the nature of speaking in these two languages. These two languages are foreign languages in future should I have the opportunity to. Fancy the sentence structure and the command of the two languages. For all of your information, their sentence structures are somewhat similar to English. Of course, we also touched on a bit on the Greek language, which in my opinion, is another enriching aspect of the Western culture.

There are so many things I wanna master or take up. So many wants, but I also realise time is limited and so are the resources. Then come this saying I fully grasped by the end of my internship with MOF, 'Unlimted Wants, Scarce Resources'. Thus I also understand the significance of priortising our goals and objectives in life. What is most impt or least impt.

The next topic was the fond memories we had in our respective high schools in Singapore. The maths equations we used to fiddle with and the hilarious things which we did in school. For boys' school, I realised from my time there, was so fun, though it involved events that were mischievous and had to be referred to the Principal and Vice-P. One example was the prank-calling of a teacher's wife (some jokers actually searched the teacher's name and contact details through Yellow Page). Obviously tt teacher was most 'notorious' figure over the entire history of the school. Have you come across any teachers telling their students that he or she is 'a Doctor-teacher' and that they have to respect him? I certainly have.....

Running out of brain juices to go further, K till next time!

Dear Mr President

2007-08-08T14:58:00.000+09:30

Putting the song title as my post title....I was looking thru the youtube website, I found out this PINK's song called Dear Mr President. With Pink questioning the political facts and the legitimacy on the war raging right now.

I was moved by thr tune and the lyrics, especially when they were showing all the pictures of the war and people suffering from poverty. I was very moved by the entire music video. So I should Bush this question, what have you done for the past 7 years? How are you going to answer to all American parents whose sons are in either dead in combat or still living under malaise situation. What I mean by malaise is the uneasiness when encountering bullets and engaging in patrol and battle. Sending in 21500 troops isnt a new strategy but shifting to a more diplomatic approach is then called a refreshing strategy of Iraq. You have made a mistake in the first place to wage this war and it is time to tell us how are you going to fix this problem.

A precedent I can think of is the Vietnam War, when Lyndon Johnson sent 500,000 troops to fight in Vietnam, thought the manpower for this war is only 20% of the amount in Vietnam. The amount is still enormous. If the situation is staying status quo, more and more innocent servicemen will be lost. Is this the outcome you want, with no objectives achieved or " MISSION FAILED" and also massive amount of casaulties. This involves the whole nation, the whole nation is at stake, and you have left the whole country a big mess.

What have you done for the past 7 yrs?

Anyway, the song lyrics for DEAR MR PRESIDENT by Pink:

Pink - Dear Mr. President Lyrics(feat. Indigo Girls)

Dear Mr. President
Come take a walk with me
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly
What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep
What do you feel when you look in the mirror
Are you proud
How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held highCan you even look me in the eye
And tell me why
Dear Mr. President
Were you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
How can you say
No child is left behind
We're not dumb and we're not blind
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pay the road to hell
What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine
How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye
Let me tell you bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh
How do you sleep at night
How do you walk with your head held high
Dear Mr. President
You'd never take a walk with me
Would you

A 2-mth recap

2007-07-25T14:13:00.000+09:30

Ok it's been 2 mths since I have last updated my blog or you can say ages....haha well, juz got back frm sg last night...it is a first time experience for arriving so late at any destination.....well, in sg, the period oversees the 10th year anniversary of the Asian Financial Crisis, 10th Anniversary of Handover of HK to China and the Live Earth Performances all around the globe....one thing i might have missed out: Release of the Last Book of Harry Potter.....Basically this trip back to sg can be considered as a fruitful, of course gain a deeper understanding of financial education....financial freedom.....thru seminars and shows, oh ya 40 years of NS, ok out of point....shld be in the sentence before....Met up wif haikiat, lormee, don, nd and davin, yuchian and xiaoting.....considerably many coz a lot of pple went in NS, especially kevin and tzepeng, helping out in the NDP, particularly no time to fork out on Sats....However, fortunately, I talked to them over the phone on occasional periods.....
Also, I have to say that this trip back to sg is more of meeting up wif relatives than with friends....met up wif my aunts and godmother, grandparents.....Glad to see that my grandpa is as healthy as before, I was most glad when I had the chance to go out with him to Bras Brasa to buy books....especially hearing that he has not been going anywhere since a few yrs ago.....With lots of assurance of the well-being of my family, I am so relieved now and back to begin my Sem 2.....juz as I have told pple about the significance of mi going back, it can mean a sense of accomplishment because it symbolises that you have completed one semester, half a yr is gone and another sem to go.....and then you cleared a year of uni study.....especially for year-end hols.....it symbolises that not only you have completed one sem, but also one yr of studies.....for this year-end, it can also mean that graduation will be within my grasps if i can do well in this sem....it will be as though it is telling you: 2nd year down, one more yr to go.....so this year-end will be the hols i realli looking forward to.....This winter vacation can be a fruitful but not as juicy as last year's.....well, but b4 anything is possible, I will need to pull thru the next two sems.....I will remain upbeat, given my track records....I will strive and work for the best.....
ok, i will sign off now cheers

2007-05-10T01:18:00.000+09:30

As at this moment, i shld be doing some amendments for my BF assignment but i am not....Fortunately i officially finished brief 1 but not brief 3's amendments....after i submit my assignment, i shall have accounting method waiting for mi to complete (not onli tt, but also commence)....i juz hope sth can boost my morale to complete all these assignments....procastination and exhaustion have plagued my soul.....

cheers and nitez

2007-05-07T07:58:00.000+09:30

I JUZ WANNA SAY IT IS GREAT BEING JUBILANT AGAIN!!!!!! coZ IT IS ALL OVER, MANCHESTER UNITED ARE NOW THE CHAMPIONS OF EPL!!!!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!

Ok, first entry after a major revamp....

2007-04-28T23:44:00.000+09:30

yes i have changed my blogskin.....i presume to all readers, it looks much better....ok, i shall start whining abt my life so far here in adelaide....well, business finance assignment due on 10 may which might be two weeks later....i onli did abt 70 per cent of the appendix part for brief 3....and i am still dazed wif how to solve them.....yes, den also 4 days later the practice set for accounting method and a test soon....i am so nervous wif my time management (although i onli plan to get it organised, it is still in a big mess), it might appear to be flegling for amateurs(of time management)....
well, abruptly tot of some parts of wat happened at the chinese new year celebrations at my aunt's house.....my uncle and father saw eye to eye on most issues, every time they meet up, they will always tok abt politics and wat happens in the business world....u noe my dad, i rarely see him open his mouth at home.....my mum called it the sign of intellect....ok i have to agree wif tt....as i believe tt a quiet dog will bite but a noisy one wouldnt.....well, everytime my uncle and dad meet up, they can tok abt mostly anything they struck their mind.....hmmm yes, well, they persuaded to take up accounting degree......i mean they explain why they want me to study accounting.....den i rmb frm someone else's blog entry which talks abt being materialistic.....
ok, i have to admit that singaporean society is very materialistic....it isnt abt properties, being rich, it is abt the importance of having a degree frm prestigious unis....I have watched the film "Singapore dreaming" which showcases the society in singapore.....Well, i am not yearning to be rich; not passionate abt my name being printed in the Forbes list.....However, in this society, wif money, you cannot survive; just like the Mastercard ad, there are some things money cant buy....this is absolutely right.....
Frankly speaking when pple calls mi to get into business, my dad hopes tt i can be a financial controller of some corporation.....Yes, just like some wise man says, everyone is entitled to their own views. Well, in my opinion, i am not realli interested in that, but sth else....I juz feel i am not of business material....the strategy to make a company prosperous, or achieve healthy growth....i am not interested in those....Thank you guys for showing ur concern for my future but dun you worry, everything shld be planned for mi by now.....Ya making money, i am not in it....My cousin whom my uncle and dad tried to convince to study accounting when he gets into uni, sounded dismissive by saying "i am not interested in money"....
According to Poor Dad Rich Dad, no one is not interested in money...if not why are there people going to work? What do they work for? Ya....tt's it.....

2007-04-22T00:34:00.000+09:30

exposure to the real world.....

ok, i shall reveal sth, during my time as an admin clerk in uob.....i realised tt everyone has been "reprimanded" in some ways, even mi myself......during the short period of time in uob, i wasnt quite used to the office life, totally an untrodden land to mi....where criticisms are in the air, meant for everyone....well, quite a gd starting ground for mi (a sneak preview of office life).....well, censoring the part of wat exactly happened...i juz said i came across this senior worker in the office hu happened to be veri kind, her name is jenny in her 50s or 60s, assist mi a lot in the face of the mountainous workload....she consoled mi, she did not want mi to have phobia upon hearing all these criticisms... well, i dunno y but maybe it was my first time or sth....
or is it? not realli used to being pointed fingers at....the idea of "nth to do wif mi and u are responsible and u are being accounted for", tis is sth i loathe....forgive mi for being harsh but tis is wat i tink.....i dunno, accountability.....everyone is accountable for their own actions, and make sure they all account for wat they did.....well, maybe to assure tt no one is perfect....not saying i commit sth in my life and you did not...i am not talking mistakes which are criminal....but common mistake which everyone is expected to commit....frm mistakes u learn.....oh tt senior told mi sth which i will always rmb which is accept opprobium and move on wif it.....i guess, i shld always bear tis in mind....tis is the real world.....
anyway, i watched the last episode of west wing on the tele, everyone juz say tt tis show can cure their insomina....i tot tis show is nice, though the fact tt tis show was meant for entertainment, my lecturer once exploit tis film to make it educational.....when my lecturer was introducing US politics to us, he let us watch a preview of the show....well, he does not stand alone....many pple did the same thing as him i believe.....
cheers, i tot i would have typed everything i thought of for this entry but in the end, it doesnt even hit 40 percent of it

If u wanna regret or repent, do it b4 it is too late.

2007-04-17T23:40:00.000+09:30

Ya it has been a while since i last update this entry.....last tues, i received news abt my ah gong....but i deferred my calling back home....it wasnt until sat tt week till i get clear of wat eactly has happened to my grandpa/ah gong....his cancer has spreaded to the lower backbone....now he feels pain on his both legs and lower bone....whenever, he moves and stands. i felt guilty once i received tt sms frm my uncle regarding wat happen to ah gong.....i shld have called him earlier, i am not filial, i am supposed to be as his grandson....he treated us so well!!! he loved us, and played wif us since young.....i was having flashbacks at tt instant when i was at mclaren vale on sat....
#1: ah gong will always sit at the guest room which was next to the kitchen, looking at us while mi and my sis were still having lunch....with a buff on the cigarrete.....then once we finished lunch, we will run to sit on my ahgong's laps, mi on the left one, and my sis on the right....
#2: ah gong will always bring us out downstairs and buy us ice-creams.....even the uncle at the mamak (is tt rite) shop noes my ah gong as we visited tt shop so many times.....same goes to the lady boss at the minimart.....we were in high spirits once we got ice-creams and always enjoy ah gong's company....one of the things we looked forward then was the arrival of our grandparents at our house....
#3: ah gong drove my dad's car to the airport and fetched my dad....true, at first i felt sth was amiss, since tt's my dad's car, no one has ever touched the car except my dad....y ah gong can drive it? oh, ah gong was once a taxi driver....so cool....i have watched him drive twice.....i rmb tt time when ah gong drove my dad's car to the airport, tt was the last time i saw him touch the steering wheel....
#4: ah gong always sat down with us on the floor and played coins wif us....we will use the coins and let it spin on the floor....everytime when i wanna spin the coins, i will always tink of this.....i can still rmb the facial expression of my ah gong at tt time, smiling.....with spiky moustache and beard....always felt the spikiness when he kissed us on the cheek....
a stronger, slimmer ah gong years ago.....i will nv ever 4get the love he showered us wif.....if u ask mi wat values he taught mi, i will say this "Ai pin cai hui ying"....work hard and you will win.....i will nv 4 get tt as well....
though he do not play wif mi and my sis juz like yrs ago, we noe frm the bottom of our heart tt his love for us nv change.....i did not noe abt myself, my mindset at tt time....i tot all these are the rights i shld receive frm all my loved ones, of coz including my parents....Onli till sat, i realised tt i too was worried abt my ah gong's health as well.....till then i realised he always owns a place in my heart.....no one can replace him, sometimes i address pple as auntie uncle, ah-ma, but i have nv address someone as ahgong.....ya, the showering of love is not an entitlement, it is a privilege given to mi....shld not take things for granted.....
so i called my ah gong on sat nite, tok to him for a while.....i said to him sth i would have nv said to him.....sth materialized thru the process called emotional outburst, i said when i come back i want to c u stand and walk healthy in my presence, ah gong went "ok, deal".....u still have to see mi graduate, u still have to c ur great grandchildren, dun leave us!!!! everyone, my aunts and uncles, dad and mum, mi and my sis, want to see u belong to us.....everyone's ah gong.....fight on, not the time for u yet....NOT YET!!!!!
i am proud to be ur grandson, and as ur grandson, i will do everything to to keep u wif us....well, pray and pray and pray.....Heaven, grant us more time, i still have not done him proud and many things i have not done....
Lastly, to say "Ah gong, I have faith in you, everyone is doing their best for you!!!! Fight on and live on"...I will pray for you....cheers

A mind overloaded wif mixture of thoughts......

2007-04-12T23:24:00.000+09:30

yes my mind is officially overloaded....i see this is the outcome of not updating my blog.....i realise tis blog provides mi a platform which i can pour out everything, juz like i confide in my confidant.....ok den yes, this week is piled up wif assignments, drving theory test and commitments.....yes i submitted my assignment, and i sat for the drving theory test....i made the last edition in the morning before i submit my assignment....wat i heard abt the assignment is tt if u fail tis assignment u fail the entire subject.....tis is sth worth astonished abt.....readers out there,it is beyond words to describe how i am panicking now.....but there is sth i wanna tok abt- an incident....tt happened two days ago....wat happened? we were discussing abt the second question of the assignment for the common law part.....mi, kinghan, tinyik, wutong were discussing.....arguing whether it is doctrine of ultra vires we shld be using or indoor management rule.....i can tell ya it was an inconclusive argument instead of typical discussion we always had....i tot at a split second, tis is an discussion not debating in parliament.....everyone held firm to their views of the situation and they argued pugnaciously......imagine how tense the atmosphere it can be if we were doing tis face-to-face.....well, wat is done cannot be undone....fingers crossed.....wat is it tt leaves an impression in my mind is the discussion we had over msn.....ya noe, either indoor management or doctrine of ultra vires......two options, but drawing a line between them seems to be so insurmountable.....Law? is there any correct or wrong answers? No, as long as u have the adequate evidence or approriate facts to prove ur stand, this answer is correct....wat i witnessed tt day was truly tense....being a spectator and not realli joining the convo, i have to say beyond words to describe......den the conclusion onli came the next day, my frien who took the other side finally "surrender".......is such contest ever going to appear again in future, in which i am the main part of it? nt sure, sometimes i juz question whether i have the faith to defeat my adversary in terms of the clash of ideas...maybe i might need some time to assimilate my facts and stand before i get myself involved......tt tense discussion certainly cast a shadow on mi....every time i tink abt comm law, i will always rmb tis.....maybe it will spell out how insurmountable u can ever get thru this sub.....
ok, after submitting my assignment, i went to take the drivers' theory test, certainly make urself a multi-tasker.....actually once last yr, i have tried studying two subjects concurrently.....i hate it when i always open msn messenger, the nokia advertisement always appear.....a pain in the neck.....well, back to the pt, exiting the multi-tasker topic for another topic, heart was thumping at the ot b4 i sat for the test, but woah, everything is over and wif a gd ending.....i passed it and at one go......
ok, den Young Master juz dunno wat is hardship.....in the westernised term, prince is used to describe pple like mi, while in mandarin, "da shao ye" is the term.....haha ok, the Prince a.k.a Young Master Ming Chien.....wanna go out there and find out wat exactly is hardship, i noe wat i shld do to achieve it....not at a young age anymore, need to get out there and noe the world haha...a few weeks ago, i came across this lady with tarot cards.....3 piles, 9 cards in each pile.....when it comes to choosing different inner voices starts to grow louder and louder, ur mind can be torn into 3 parts, which one to choose, in the end i used my gut feeling to choose the middle pile, and the cards, actually says i am beginning to manage my own life.....going out there independently hahaha.....ya it is time to acquire life experiences rather than cooping up either at home or in the small world which prevent us frm seeing wat the actual world is like? ya, the world is big haha.......cheers outta here

Liberated frm the world of mid-sem test for now.....

2007-04-04T09:06:00.001+09:30

ok i am very delirious to declare that i have finished my bf mid-sem test.....in fact, i did not lament on tt 50-min when i was sitting for it.....james told mi not to study, it is still the same if u do study for it.....outcome is still a fail.....yesterday, the 3 wolves: mi, tinyik and kinghan....as usual went for the test and den lecture....kinghan, sticking to routine; sat somewhere else alone when sitting for tests. mi and tinyik, also sticking to routine; sitting together.....well, the test realli can hang someone instanteously if tt person have not taken any finance-related courses ever in his life....i can tell u tt....i was realli clueless of wat to do, though i do noe how to answer some questions in there....
i tot of naruto, when they were supposed to do the jounin test, sitting for the theory segment of the exam haha, the test was not meant to test how knowledgable u are, but test ur copying skills (how well-versed u r)....i believe it also applies to the test yesterday, pple peeping at other pple's work haha it's a sure thing.....
anyway, they will be concentrating on their financial accounting test, for mi comm law assignment: i am currently brushing thru textbook and notes to recap wat have i learnt.....in order to tackle the questions....well, hopefully everything goes well.....
well, speaking of the 3 wolves which is ranked according to our seniority haha: tinyik the eldest, king han the second, and mi the third and the youngest haha.....at least, we have a term for our gang, yup, hang out everytime after lectures or b4 lectures haha well, hope tt tis can continue for the next 1.5 yrs we have left in tis uni.....everlasting friendship, my buds in uni, the ones i always look forward to during lecs haha......juz realised a lot of friens around mi are willing to give mi a hand when i am in need of guidance and help or assistance haha.....beyond words to express how i feel as at tis moment, neither do i feel like saying anything when i meet u all.....i am always veri grateful, u have added colours to my life here in adelaide, one of the most wonderful memories i will take wif mi.....i expect the 4 yrs when i am here will be filled wif flamboyant colours.....sth i will nv 4get....the wolves haha arhooooooo!!!!! reno and mark are my bestest mentors plus advisors, of coz i will nv 4get u all!!!! well, instead of writing out my routine here in my entry, i tot it will much more wise of mi to make use of tis blog to share wif u all my mentality, my opinions of things in general.....much more worthwhile....cheers

Hmmm ok

2007-04-02T22:47:00.000+09:30

yes ok, i have the "cheek" to update my blog instead of studying for bf tmr.....well, a couple of big decisions made, not going to mel this hols, coz got academic commitments....n ya....bf test tmr haha, flipping comm law tutes and notes and text for a while, argh promoters, doctrine of ultra vires. ok, law jargon can be locked up at the back of my mind for now......anyway, went to the Welcome Dinner organised by ASBC yesterday, had a lot of fun in my own table or rather call it in my own world haha....wif committee members, debby, betty and may haha with the exception of phy and hans over at the other table.....hmmmm anyway, a line of wat de michael chin's words struck mi tt nite.....human capital, pple like us studying are the human capital everyone wants to focus on....whenever u go....but wat actually struck was the peripheral of wat he said: be it going back where you come frm or staying here and work, cherish ur life here, ur life here will be one of most memorable experiences ever in ur life.....well, i agree, i certainly have to go back for NS, i was thinking what the scene will be like wif mi wandering around the city and the campus shortly after i throw my graduation hat high up into the air.....i tot of myself having all the flashbacks for the past 4 yrs i had spent here in adelaide.....frm a quiet and introverted filled wif ambitions young 17 to wateva i will become when i throw my hat into the air.....u noe mi and don actually saw eye to eye on where we are going to work upon graduation: we came to a consensus tt sg will be a much better place to work.....well, if my future plans does not experience any evolution, i guess upon graduation, i will be leaving for gd.....hmmmm maybe no!!!! hu noes, juz dun wanna disappoint my friens in adelaide haha...i sort of got attached to the place when i first left adelaide.....miss everything abt sg, including news, food, pastime and outings.....well, i have failed to cycle at pulau ubin wif my friens juz because i was working.....gosh....i have yet to utilise and realise wat the accounting degree can provide mi in terms of job opportunites. hmmm cant wait for june 30th to come so tt i can fly back to sg.....hoepfully a gathering will be organised, craving for it for 3 yrs and the class t-shirt as well .....hmmm but for sth, i have submitted my application juz early last mth, they emailed mi saying tt i will be informed of my application status within 3 mths....till now no reply, hopefully gd news will be coming my way....anyway, to enforce patience, i juz have to say to myself: "no news is good news"....ya fingers crossed....all riddy outta here cheers

Ok, another random blog!!!!

2007-03-31T23:34:00.000+09:30

oh, updating my blog.....tmr will be the Welcome Dinner by ASBC at the Mings' Palace. and James is in da House, haha but he is not overlooking what i am typing now!!!! ok, back to the pt, next week is the last week b4 the mid-sem break...don and nd will be back in sg....but i am still drooling over how i will spend the 2 weeks endowed to mi......well, going on a roadtrip to mclaren vale, on the 14th, 12th will be the deadline for my comm law assignment, and the coming tues will be my bf (business finance) test....oh man, bf-ing is the new term i have created....hmmmm heard tt this test is so difficult that a lot of pple failed, but the test is redeemable as written in the course outline haha hmmmm, have been visiting several pple's blogs and regularly looking at my blog's tagboard haha hmmmm, weird ones and pple calling mi (gayy), ok, end of comments....

AND LES, STOP UR NONSENSE, I AM 100 PERCENT NORMAL, NOT GAYYYYY!!!!!!! haha

well, haha still dunno whether i will go mel or not, 500 dollars max to go there, 5th to the 10th was the period of time proposed....hmmmm and also, dad is coming on the 21st....well, i am frantic over bf haha....wat will happen on tues???? gosh, juz an entry depicting my recent routine and plan for my hols, nth special as the last 2 entries....cheers outta here

Blog-restructuring

2007-03-26T23:56:00.000+09:30

ok, blog-restructuring....relatively short entry tis is going to be.....KISS (Keep it Simple Stupid), yes, according to some readers, for the blogskin, they sort of tot it was veri gayish....ok, ladies and gentlemen i share these concerns, this is why i have decided tt i will look for a new blogskin, to replace the 5566 one (well, in the past i will say no to changing), but this time, i am going to.....all rite yawns, 0.01am now, gotta sleep *snores*

BLEACH!!!!! INTROPECTIVE ENTRY

2007-03-22T22:40:00.000+10:30

yes, boring mi!!!! the youtube released the first half of the bleach episode 119....guess those bleach fans out there, will like to find out wat happen to Ikkaku after he released his bankai bah!!!!! i have to say his bankai is COOL!!!!! heard frm reno tt his BANKAI is second to only one person out of those hu noes how to release the second level of zanpoktu (did i get tt rite?).....well, upon watching the first half of episode 119, i sort of getting myself into deep sense of thought abt everything in general.....my thing in mind started to surface: wat am i searching for? How do I come abt having this thing in my mind?
You noe, i have commenced having these questions materialized in my head ever since i watched bleach episode 109....hmmm drooling over the idea....well, my review on tt particular episode: Kariya came frm a poor background....(shinigamis strived to eradicate all bountos, ran'tao saved him frm all these savages put up by the shinigamis, Kariya was a young boi then)....throughout his past, frm the moment he acquired bounto powers to the time he joined other bountos to go against Quincys.....he saw defeats and defeats and defeats, he saw failure all of the time....TT's y he wanna get more powerful....absorb living souls tt totally contravene the obligations set up by the founding BOuntos....he sought power to change his own fate, and wanna see himself as the Supreme being....He put his own fate before the race of Bounto....He wanna be seen as the most powerful being in the universe who lifted up the race of bounto....While Ichigo sought power to protect his friens, he sought for a turn of fate.....hmmm drooling over tt subtle distinction between these 2 terms....this is the answer to the common question mi and my "da-ge" wanting to seek....(not tt we are weird)....for those out there who watched this episode, shld noe kariya was defeated in the end....well, ichigo and co. then realised Fate is actually a big wheel (with us being the cogs) and not a line extending forward. Rukia asked "shld we resign ourselves to Fate or break free of it?" drooling over this distinction and trying to figure out my stance towards Fate and also bearing the same question Rukia asked....
Searching my purpose in life is something i might consider doing.....two yrs ago, i rmb watching this show depicting HanWudi (true recount, so history lovers i suggest u to watch this), he said to one of his generals, every generation has its own purpose in life....put it in my own words, authoring the line slightly, every people has its own purpose in life....And yes but, WAT IS TT PURPOSE? yes, wat is my purpose of living? Wat i wanna achieve in life, you noe....yes again, 2 yrs ago, NDP 2005, i rmb they asked many children regarding their aspirations....Then lastly, we came across this child (he said, "I want to be a Prime Minister!!!")....the crowd was scoffing over the idea.....in a realistic world, there will be a lot of pple doubting tis and tt.....even mi, yes, i have my own ambitions, everyone has it but depending on the ambition you have, for mine, pple doubt i can fulfil my dreams....i noe there are pple out there who have been doubted....Yes, as these doubts motivate u to prove them wrong, this fuels u to affirm your ambitions....A strong message to all: if u have an ambition but beyond doubt, go achieve it and nv let eveybody doubt u....if u dare to aspire, go for it, dare to strive hard for it!!!!
Yes, for mi i have set out to achieve tis dream since a long time.....recently i did sth i tot would be one of the best opportunities to achieve tis dream.....however, i might be feeling uneasy in terms of ethics and conscience....whether is it a right thing or a wrong thing i have done???? Racking my brain over tis question.....but i did tis out of selflessness.....i have clear conscience for tt.....well, a long entry abt life philosophy....felt better upon whining....shld be long enuff or else, i can help to cure pple having insomina lolx....all rite tata outta here

Oh man.....not in a study mood....

2007-03-21T00:13:00.000+10:30

oh man, i am in dire straits.....how i wish i have a couple of fotos wif mi now....and i mean freshly taken ones.....y ar....ok I am taking commlaw, bf and accounting method....i came across this gal whom i saw sitting somewhere b4 the staircase down to the library reading her commlaw notes....tt was yesterday i tink....i am in deep soup now....BF is cutting down my throat and i am realli gasping for air......tt's suffocating mi....all the calculations i need to rmb.....oh boi, guess i need some time to get out of the blue and proceed to being studious.....slack slack slack slack slack....tis is the onli word in the dictionary now.....ok....and yes, i am indeed very blessed because i have ERIN as my Business Finance tutor and den i have MYERS as my commlaw tutor.....the latter is ok....ya statutes, court cases must be brought into the arguments, followed by the arguments....sort of having some idea abt it.....looking at the long term, tribulations are coming my way for the next two sems.....if i can go thru tis two sems, for sem 2 next yr, i will be ok.....den back to sg for NS.....ok, managed to tok to gab yesterday at sushi train.....hmmm he sounds so yearning to go back....he said adelaide is boring....hmmm for mi, yes i wanna fly back do my NS, work in singapore.....
but b4 this day comes, NS ord, BMT, uni graduation, getting thru each sem smoothly, are still the levels i need to go past....but b4 we discuss tt, my tutes are still in a mess....not done.....noooooooo, procastination and some sort of prolonged "glued to com screens" syndrome is at its peak.....o man....shld do sth abt it and i will.....or else, b4 i noe it, i will be forced to the riverside.....been involved in club stuffs as well, as secretary of the SSA, as a committee member as well, going on roadtrip during one day in the mid-sem break to mclaren trip.....might need to get some fotos taken frm some other pple....maybe posting it here....and dad will be flying here during the hols.....wooooohooo, family reunion again.....oh man....ok received the warcraft 3 files frm james and also CS frm my cousin...so been glued to the world of "manas" and "headshots"....but juz recently been out of the world of "headshots".....oh boi, i betta go attempt tute questions b4 i realise i am going to be slaughtered by my tutor.....cheers outta here

A GUY SEEKING TO DISCOVER THE REAL WORLD!!!!

2007-03-15T23:54:00.000+10:30

yes, frm tt title, i am tt person.....so evident, for those who knows mi well, might be subtle to find out tt i am such a person.....a person or boi wif shields all around him....patriot missiles blocking all incoming warheads.....
i am a person who wanna get out there and see the real world, ascertaining wat i have heard abt the life experiences.....haiz dunno la, k cheers i outta here

INTRUDER ALERT!!!!!

2007-03-15T11:31:00.000+10:30

juz as my world of affections for tt person was on the verge of neutralising, someone and tt someone sort of caught my attention....my world of emotions once again felt tt tremor....

it is not n original tremor, but stumble my heart and soul again and again and again!!!!!
this someone makes mi tink of tt episode 3 yrs ago....
seeking to find tt next step for mi, wif the options i have: keep myself frigid, or go wif the flow....
i have been tempted by the first choice, juz like noise bombarding the world of quietness and peace....
tis person i had known juz two mths ago, barely noe her but i sense infatuation again will make a comeback!!!!!
reminiscience of tt episode: always tink of sth to avoid the recurrence of tis particular event.....a classic example of liking tt imaginary view of her, not the actual her.....*drooling*

am i following tis path again?

Well, only getting to know the actual her is the way...but we are countries apart....

Only, Heaven knows....

Back...........

2007-02-27T23:22:00.000+10:30

been 2 months since i last updated my blog......went back to sg and juz came back last fri.....met lormee, nd, don, hk, tp and kevin and matt, lester, davin, some npcc squadmates as well......going out and work as well....

First work: admin clerk for 3 weeks at uob
Second: TNC, as a Accounts trainee (used a lot of Microsoft Excel).

For any news in sg, this is the one i am most concerned abt: Budget 2007

Wat happens: Workfare scheme is implemented, tax adjustments (GST and corporate tax rate)

GST goes up, and corporate tax rate goes down....in terms of the corporate tax rate, i am most welcomed with what the govt has done, certainly trying to address the long term probs.....talent outflow......y, mainly because they are more concerned abt their jobs, cant find a job in sg....no opportunities.....so tax adjustments to expand all these opportunities....to retain top talents and attract foreign talents.....a decisive move.....

this trend might continue for the next few Budgets, which will remain to be seen.....to mi, in overall this Budget is quite a good one......k outta here

A small container overloaded wif so many stuffs....

2006-12-04T23:53:00.000+10:30

Well, time to remit some of my thoughts again...this container is overloaded, ought to find something to unload. You know, after my sup, I met Mark and Reno. For the former, I call him "MM" because he always do not hesitate to teach things to you. Though at times, I do doubt what he said but I do like the way he plans out his stuffs. I begin to admire this man, a man knowing what he wants to accomplish and commitments in his everyday life. He do have ideas and agendas at his fingertips perhaps, to be scrupulous. Though sometimes when he taught mi stuff he sounded as if he was lecturing mi.....a great "MM" I have!!!!1
As for Reno, a sworn bro of mine, I think he is a hardworking man, a man wif filial piety, a term I have not used for a long time. A lame joker, realli hahaa!!!! Just tt, I dun wanna dig out pple's drawbacks......

Anyway, I have realised the areas I ought to work on, acuqire knowledge based on these areas:
1. Politics (as always)
2. Economics
3. Accounting/Finance
4. History
5. Philosophy
6. Current Affairs
7. Personal Improvement (Qualities)

Yup, this is it.....write it out here to prevent the risk of forgetting this or tt.....my plan to go to KPMG to ask for part-time next yr....hopefully, I do can transfer to Bachelor of Commerce next yr and then also being eligible for a placement in KPMG.......anyway, reading books will be in my agenda for this week, followed by hunting for chocolates and more (perhaps that's all). Well, I juz wanna write my plans out so that I can remember and then stick to it.....alrite tata

Newspaper Article....

2006-11-28T10:26:00.000+10:30

Below is an article reporting a recent event:

Jubilance for the Academic Team In Adelaide
The academic team stationed in Adelaide has reported in the success for the examinations. Out of the 4 subjects, the team obtained 3 distinctions. The team yesterday celebrated this remarkable achievement. The team captain, Koh Ming Chien has expressed his joy regarding this success and added that this success was attributed to the hard work put in by the team members for the past 6 months.

"I am overjoyed about this achievement, but I still think that we can still do better, and we will continue to do better" he added. However, the menace was still far from over. When asked about the retaking of the exam paper this Friday, Mr Koh replied with a sense of confidence, "No worries, we are ready for any challenges or surprises on Friday. We will strive to do better, and we will." This was due to the tragedy on 4th November as the fire alarm went off in the midst of the exam. The team, with the belief of doing better in the sups, are prepared for Friday's paper. "We are ready, and we will create history." one of the team members said. With a sense of optimism and a good track record behind, the team seems to be formidable. The best of luck to them on Friday.

Back in Singapore, where the chairman of the team has expressed a sense of joy and commended the team's hard effort for the past 6 months. "It is a good result and I am happy about it but they should understand that it is still far from over as there is another paper on Friday." the chairman has said. He has also expressed a sense of optimism for the Friday's paper. He said no matter what, he is proud of the team and the team will receive a grand victory celebration when the members return on Dec 12. All the best to these members and once again congratulations or their achievement.

Failure or Setback?

2006-11-26T22:42:00.000+10:30

Failure or setback? Distinguish them. This question and of course, this two terms have been moving all around my mind, from the moment I decided to write this entry to this moment when I am typing. Am I a person whose fighting spirit is up to mark yet? Is it sth I have to possess in the form of potential? I mean, is it naturally in my heart or I have to train it? One of my attributes that will be applicable. During this moment of deep consideration, wif my mind and gut feelings and conscience, I have thought of sth which I have not thought b4. Everyone told mi that this path to fulfil ur aspirations do not work. However, time and time again, this idea has been consolidated in my mind and I eventually get to realise what I set out to achieve.
As for the two terms mentioned above, my mind was in a deadlock initially when attempting to distinguish these two terms. However, I have found the difference between them. The difference is whether the "fight" is an ongoing one or it belongs to history. I have encountered sth that is related to failing. Dun get mistaken that I flung my exams but I failed in one of the subjects necessary in life to pursue someone's "soul". There is tis soul I always want to pursue, but did not have the courage to try. I mean I dare to do some things inappropriate in public which go against the law of sanity. I got complimented by that and also criticised by tt kind of behaviour.
I do not have the courage to pursue someone's soul. I mean I know how to handle problems are that are complex but helpless in terms of things in life that are much more simpler. I wonder why. For example, calling, call for how many times a week or day.....I fail this subject, I have a feeling that I might have freaked someone out. I asked myself was I being natural or just making the call for the sake of making that call. I am deprived of that courage to try new stuffs in life. My frien called mi couple of times to find another target. I have been hesitating on this prob. I thought, I will not leave an unfinished war or battle undecided of its outcome before leaving for another battle elsewhere. My answer is, if it is not official that I failed, I will not withdraw from the battlefield. This will be called setback. If u decide to continue fighting this battle, these hindrance which you had tripped over, are called setbacks. However, if you withdraw from the battlefield, these will be called failures. It might not sound right but it makes sense to me....alright I have to tata now see ya soon....

An announcement.....

2006-11-22T08:19:00.000+10:30

Well, time to emit some of my thoughts here. I will start off wif a decision of mine regarding the exam results for one of my subjects. It will be announced in the following "speech" of mine and it will sound quite political maybe......

"On 1st November 2006, 11.30am , during the midst of the exam, the fire alarm went off and students were forced to evacuate the examination hall and the exam was cancelled at the spot. 2 days later, the examiners said they will mark the exam answers written at that spot and will be scaled it to the mark we will get should the exam run smoothly. If we are not satisfied wif the results we are given the chance to resit it again. A target was thus set as to whether to retake the exam or not. Yesterday, as the result of mine did not meet this target, I would like to express my sense of unsatisfactory and fervorly believe that this method of marking did not reflect a student's understanding. However, it is still unfortunate to accept that we have to accept the failure of achieving the result which we strongly desire. My friends, as a sign of protest to this way of marking and that the strong belief that we have the ability to excel in this subject. It is my intention to retake this exam. Dun feel embarassed over this outcome and decision, for some of my friends. I know all of u feel welcome abt this decision but some will feel embarassed as our adversaries got better results and thus there was no necessity for them to retake the exam. My friends, there is nothing to be ashamed about. You know, everyone deserves a second chance and it is always endowed to all of us. It is up to us to use it or dispose it into the rubbish chute. My friends, let mi give u an example. In the 1960 US presidential elections, Richard Nixon was defeated by John F Kennedy. However, in the 1968 elections, he made a comeback and won the nomination in his party once again to run for president. Then he won the presidency. My friends, from this example, we have seen that someone was given a second chance and he used it well. Another much similar example, was when I sat my microecons mid-term test for the first time and the paper went missing, then I was given another chance to prove my ability, I retook the exam and I got full marks for it. My friends, my call to you all is that dun feel disgraced by being given a second chance but it will be an authentic disgrace not using the chance endowed to you. My friends, I do believe in Hope and a better tomorrow and let us be optimistic about this exam and use this ample time endowed to us and demonstrate our outstanding and true capability in excelling in this subject. My friends, this is a major feat for us and we will overcome it and work for a better tomorrow. My friends, I will ask for ur support and unity once again and let us overcome this together as one. Thank you!"

Ok, this is just to address my inner soul regarding the idea to re-take the exam. I was ambivalent abt this idea....so ya anyway, felt better and cheers, tata!!!!

Crazy over her!!!!!

2006-09-28T01:35:00.000+09:30

Day by day, i am crazy over her.....can u picture it? it's juz like a poison getting more and more serious......always thinking abt her......wanna say it out to her but i noe time is not ripe yet.....geez i noe everything but when i den can confess everything.....ohhh

What a memorable birthday celebration!!!! i dun mean juz one juz all of the celebrations in different days!!!!

2006-09-17T01:15:00.001+09:30

Well, 2day is to celebrate the day when i was born....But first, let mi recap the things I had done b4 I was 18.....Firstly, on wed, I had made a few presentations verbally.....I went to Hughes Plaza with mark anita yingming....to present to the bradford students abt our experience.....I did talk a lot of crap but I did feel confident as one of the speakers. Secondly, my commercial law tute, i need to present my case to the "judges"....I always look to this tute every week.....had fun always...Thirdly, on thurs, AGM, I made a fool of myself haha presenting speech which was quite out of topic.....or to be specific, a speech which is meant for politicians in sg.....big topic, get heatened up at tt time. Though I did not get the post I wanted, I got the post of Secretary. I was glad abt this without realli feeling any disappointment. But I felt a dive in my confidence when I went for my second round of election for the post of Secretary....Well, though I shld thank those who voted, I shld thank matt instead first.....His word of encouragement made mi feel better, I was unable to sleep the night b4.

Yup, I got to rest den fri- Day 1 Of Celebrations
Went to ding hao wif wutong, liuxingwu, kinghan, edwin, hellen, lawrence, john......to have our dinner....had a fun time talking abt the jokes we had at bradford.....realli a fun time.....
Then day 2, went to victor harbour, visited the campsite for the children's camp.....yup met yingming's sis there....wat a coincidence!!!! haha den went out for dinner wif yan, kim, vivian, reno, yee whei, jiang wei, huiyu, my two cousins and my sis, my sis brought a frien as well and sujun!!! I had a fun time realli.....had coffee after tt at cibo.......den it was 11pm an hour b4 i turned 18...we went to unisa and took photos of ourselves, as if we were taking a photo album of "celebrities"....each foto with different poses.....i realli enjoyed myself, thank u all had the countdown thing wif u all.....a million thanks to all of u guys.....
For the actual day, I will spend time wif my family......at this moment, let us reverse time to 18 years ago which was in 1988, time: 8.23pm, venue: Mount Alvernia Hospital.......the place and time when i was born.....I could onli get out of my mum's womb thru surgery.....my uncle was the one performing the operation.....my mum bear lots of pain when she gave birth to mi.....Frm then on, I had been a big prob to my parents....having a hard time bringing mi up....The days in sg represented the time when i still have not matured.......now, I cant say I am but I can say I am going to be.....There were times when I was not satisfied of their restrictions on mi.....because I did not try to understand what they were thinking.....but now, I can.....I do understand......though I still not satisfied wif them sometimes, i still try to tink in their position and understand them.....thus, i did not realli argue wif them......
though 18 is still young, it is also not too young. Shld be the time when u actually get some experiences in life.....appreciate the care and concern given by ur loved ones....cherish them....or if you tink u have not noe ur loved ones deep enuff, try to get to noe them....u will understand them in the new way......
Therefore, later at adelaide time: 9:53pm....which is singapore time: 8.23pm. i will be at home spending the actual day wif my family, especially wif the person hu give birth to mi......also make calls back to sg: my ah gong my ahma, papa, Mummy Celestine, and my elder aunt maybe......yup, shld try to get to noe them in a new way.....u might find tt they are not actually wat u tot at first.....
I realised it long ago, but i felt awkward to say out to them....or type it out....To my parents: though sometimes i am arrogant, I still love u all.......Thank you for showering mi with love and care for the past 18 yrs.......Thank you papa and mama, mama coming wif mi to aust and papa who decided to send mi here and made my mind grow up........A BILLION THANKS TO U !!!! my meimei, thank you for ur present.....i will buy u a present in return, hehe!!!!

Biang, veri mushy, fortunately i typed it out i doubt i cannot even say iy out loud to them!!! Anyways, signing out.....Cheers!!!!

P.S for those hu voted for mi in AGM, I will treat as a birthday present from u all hehe!!!!!

Official stuffs!!!!!

2006-09-01T23:19:00.000+09:30

ok, juz a bit less than 1 mth since i last updated my post....yup, juz two days ago, we had a last NDP com.....debriefing basically, not a lot of jokes, juz reports and opinions abt the entire event frm the entire com.....yup but it is official that the 2006 NDP com has been dissolved. So saddening, juz will miss those times when the com comes together for meetings!!! maybe those days allowed mi to have sth to look forward to every week: meetings!!!! yup, but it's all in the past. What now is that i have to go back to my studies. That's it!!!! and also a possible campaign for a post in the SSA com. seems to be confirmed tt the meeting will be held 13 days frm now, 3 days frm my birthday. a mix of excitement and panic. Why, afraid of contest? perhaps it's because it might be my first time running in elections like this? haha yup, cant decide whether i wanna run or not.

Well, still have a lot of time to decide....we will juz put tt aside? tmr going to the RA show, my uni friens went 2day but then i felt so bad tt i cant go with them....ya, but then i will have fun going with my other friens as well. For her, I will try to take initiative to noe her well, and others as well. Well, why i am not delirious abt tmr? oh wait, i am haha!!!!! 2 yrs in aust, but the first time to visit the RA showgrounds in relation to the show....a while havent been there since the exams. Also, other than the RA show, I am honoured to be granted the title "Organiser" for a possible to Mel, after the exam yup, well make enquires abt the things required and the budget set for the trip. ya, i tink tis is it, Out frm mi and cheers!!!!!

Aftermath of the first few weeks of uni!!!!

2006-08-16T20:29:00.000+09:30

Well, a long time since i have updated my post. Have been reading other pple's blogs but have not touched mine yet!!!! Well, went back to sg during the hols. However, i still did not manage to do wat i wanted to do. Juz like "new year resolution". Yup, went out wif andy, davin lormee, don and more la......some of them i did not go out wif.... at least i met them in the streets like lester, kenn.....yup hoe guan maybe.....oh 1 person, my primary skool frien: jerome. I wanted to have a primary school gathering. regardless of 1/4, 2/4, 3/4 or other primary skool classes, i dun mind having a meeting wif them. den take pics which will be memorable yup.....certainly, jerome, met tt that day, when i was walking to some other shopping centre, near the area of Plaza Singapura. oh well, this post may juz provide mi the TO-DO List of wat i will do when i go back sg again.

1. Find Primary school friens den try to arrange a time and place for gathering.
2. same as usual, go out wif andy, don lormee and more
3.go out wif adelaide friens? clara and more?
4. Yu Siang, havent seen him for 2 yrs!!!!!
5. NPCC Squadmates, liangwang and more?
6. Jonathan and others, wanting to call them out when I went back, but so bz at tt time, so i have to drop the idea. I promise this time I go back, we will go out!!!!!
7.Xinyi.....met her at NYP for onli a few minutes. Nth to do!!!! But maybe also call ur friens out lor....
8. Almost 4get, go back MSHS, have been thinking abt it for a while but i did not execute the plan.

Yup, might be all, i will refresh this list again and again. hmmmm, there are still 4 mths frm now b4 i talk abt another trip back home? this time, i will make sure i have an even more meaningful and fun time in sg compared to the july hols. well, for now talk to friens(sg) on msn, work hard in skool. Crack spastic jokes and more..... juz like DON say, OWNING AR!!!!!!

ok, u and davin's drunken chicken incident will alwaes be remembered. haiz, our 4g and 3g days were over, what were left were memories. Realli miss those days, u noe....Glad to have talked abt all these at starbucks tt day b4 don left for sydney. maybe we can go NS together haha!!!!

anyway, back to reality, juz had national day celebations, many pple went and it was a great success. well done to the organising team yeeee!!!!! all over and back to normal life of mugging schoolwork!!!!!! yup, i need to go home study liao.....this post is written in the library of my uni!!!!! hehe cheers!!!!

Compliment of great teamwork and coordination.....

2006-05-15T13:01:00.000+09:30

well, tot initially i shld end my topic on the celebrations on 13 May....but looking at lichin's email message to all people involved in the play. I felt quite emotional and reflected on a lot of qualities tt have been surfaced during the play. For example, we have a frien who was involved in two roles. As he finished acting the first role, he had to run backstage to prepare for his second role. Everyone at the backstage, including some performers, helped to put on his costumes without anyone informing them to do so. Due to this, this frien is able to enter stage without any time delayed. I dunno, I felt veri emotional as I am typing this. The play you all have seen on stage on sat, actually took a lot of the time and efforts of people involved. All if these tracked back to our first rehearsal. TT time, there weren't ant props prepared for the performers. Mi, though I do not need any costumes or props but my voice, I sort of did not get to the tone expected. I did not get to the stern tone when required. Going down the memory lane at the moment, from a misty idea of what we are responsible of to a well-trained team that has delivered a great play. (TO BE ADDED IN THIS POST)

Whole Hour of Intensity

2006-05-13T20:00:00.000+09:30

well, searched thru the photos at msn groups.....quite memorable wow, miss the old days!!!! this foto was taken with a pose of michael jackson's trademark....haha sry for requiring to tilt ur head to see mi haha... anyway, being bz for the whole day, helping out at victoria square for the vesak day celebrations. feel pitiful for pple whom i called to invite to go, but did not go in the end. not realli tired actually, did narration for the play as one of the programmes. Haha, hmmm i was escstatic actually to get to "perform as the voice" actually. Hope tt my narration is good enuff....haha

Narration for the king is my responsibility and also contribution to the evil laughters, the loud roar of "I am his witness" which is at the last part of the play. Oh, and of course, the "wuwuwuwuwu" of the old lady.

Geex, rmb yesterday's politics lectures was a total catastrophe for mi and other friens of mine. Talked abt nigeria, a nigerian speaker came to talk us abt nigeria. I felt initially tt i would certainly relish but it turned out that he screwed up the entire lecture with his nigerian accent. I would like to listen but I dunno wat he was talking abt. He went "elections salkdhldkalsahdldhlkas"oh well, dun understand most of his lecture but onli get some words which he said in his lecture. We onli care wat were on the slides and not wat he was talking abt. I tried very hard to listen but it was in vain. geez, need to mug my IS assignment man!!!! I will post the pic when lormee posed wif "his bra" on haha.....oh well, good old days...Cheers!!!!

Strong Mandate For PAP........

2006-05-11T00:02:00.000+09:30

GE results: PAP grabbed 82 out of the 84 parliamentry seats.....big win for the PAP and PM Lee especially, as the fact that he ran the elections first time as Prime Minister. End here..analysis coming soon...

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2006-04-29T09:06:00.000+09:30

haha no title to name for this post....woah, haha the GE is coming haha, residents frm my area do not need to vote....no opposition dare to contest there...haha my mum do not need to take the trouble to go to canberra to vote....haha anyway, two assignments and two oral presentations to be submitted soon..... doing finance assignment now, not realli making any progress for the information systems assignment. To be truthful, i have not touched it yet haha....well, still satisfied wif my first IS assignment.....hmmm did my best and get such a satisfactory mark i truly deserve. haha, uni life is not very stressful isnt it? if this statement is wrong, i can also say i have lived wif it and adapted to it....so hopefully there should not be any probs for mi!!!! I certainly noe how to deal wif it!! u muz at least learn how to relax....den u will learn how to tackle stress....anyway, the political crisis in thailand is certainly catastrophical...sale of shincorp to temasek holdings arouses allegations tt thaksin is corrupted. protests followed and he subsequently stepped down after his "remarkable" efforts to reconcile the nation....elections was in a big mess....I suggest you all go to this website http://www.time.com/time/asia/covers/501060417/thai_vpt.html

and have a look, interesting article, westerners' perspective of democracies of ASEAN nations....end here wif a song....."Lyrics pls" A tribute to 2pac, ghetto gospel....

Uhh,
Hit them with a lil' ghetto gospel

[Chorus - Elton John:]
Those who wish to follow me (My ghetto gospel)
I welcome with my hands
And the red sun sinks at last into the hills of gold
And peace to this young warrior without the sound of guns

[2Pac]
If I could recelect before my hood dayz
I'd sit and reminisce, nigga and bliss on the good dayz
i stop and stare at the younger, my heart goes to'em
They tested, it was stressed that they under
In our days, things changed
Everyone's ashamed to the youth cuz the truth looks strange
And for me it's reversed, we left them a world that's cursed, and it hurts
cause any day they'll push the button
and yall condemned like Malcolm x and Bobby Hunton, died for nothin
Don't them let me get teary, the world looks dreary
but when you wipe your eyes, see it clearly
there's no need for you to fear me
if you take the time to hear me, maybe you can learn to cheer me
it aint about black or white, cuz we're human
I hope we see the light before its ruined
my ghetto gospel

[Chorus - Elton John]

[2Pac]
Tell me do you see that old lady aint it sad
Living out a bag, but she's glad for the little things she has
And over there there's a lady, crack got her crazy
Guess she's given birth to a baby
I don't trip and let it fade me, from outta the frying pan
We jump into another form of slavery
Even now I keep discouraged
Wonder if they take it all back while I still keep the courage
I refuse to be a role model
I set goals, take control, drink out my own bottle
I make mistakes, I learn from everyone
And when its said and done
I bet this Brotha be a better one
If I'm upset, you don't stress
Never forget, that God hasn't finished with me yet
I feel his hand on my brain
When I write rhymes, I go blind, and let the lord do his thang
But am I less holy
Cuz I choose to puff a blunt and drink a beer with my homies
Before we find world peace
We gotta find peace in that war on the streets
My ghetto gospel

[Chorus - Elton John]

[2Pac]
Lord can you hear me speak!!
To pay the price of being hell bound...

Hahaha........

2006-04-11T23:23:00.000+09:30

Got to chat up wif donovan.....2 months since i last saw him and heard his voice...... haha 4 yrs of friens and neighbourhood frien as well. haha tok abt a lot of stuffs, milk and alex will be my shifu and will teach mi to play dota hahaaha!!!!! den i will trash everyone when i go back sg haha!!!!

Anyway, also talked abt gals, his expertise, gave mi some advice and so.........hmmm no mood to type further. Cheers!!!! Details abt our conversation will be posted!!!!! Cheers!!!

Tammy, Rest In Peace.......

2006-04-08T21:29:00.000+09:30

Just heard frm Mark tt, the gal involved in the nanyang poly incident commited suicide....hmmmm in my opinion, i think she should not do it....We must know that the humiliation she suffered is palpable and intangible. People like us cannot realli understand how does it feel. A gal at the same age as mi.....i feel tt it is quite foolish to commit suicide....there are so many things tt are waiting for mi to be accomplished....I have yet to serve my National Service( think i am looking forward to that day), career i have yet to be established. Maybe I will say that we should cherish the life we have had. She has a golden future in front of her.

I will say that this test might be an obstacle or a test for her, after the test, her maturity will be enhanced by a few notches. She failed miserably, in terms of emotions. However, perhaps I just say without experiencing it myself. Saying is more easier than done, I might be able to feel like she did but spare a thought for your loved ones. A practice of suicide will cause to lose your pain eternally and it is temporaily but think you will cause permanent damages on your loved ones. Imagine how much tears they will shed for you. I have this mentality tt I have not achieved what I have set out to achieve. I would not wanna go juz like tt. I would to mention my primary school classmate valerie who has passed away 4 yrs ago. She did well for her PSLE but she left the world. What a pity!!! Imagine how she wanted to fight the disease to keep herself alive!!!! The fighting spirit is what I always wanted....how she wanted to study secondary school!!! She did not give up herself. The will to survive is robust.

Secondly, a person whom I want to talk about is my maris stella english teacher's father, an active person, but she perceived her father as someone whose will to live is more than robust. Her father actually contacted frm diabetes. He carried his lifestyle just as normal: carry on wif his smoking......even though the doctor persuaded him to change his lifestyle. However, toward his last days, his will has diminished and to an eventual zero. The point I wanna point out is tt will to live is the key.....

Geez, have not updated my blog a long time....but I will say tt I will compensate by writing wat I have done the past period of time when I did not update my blog in my future posts.

Last thing I would to say is.......Tammy, Rest In Peace. May God Bless You In Heaven

haha....long time no updates

2006-04-08T09:45:00.000+09:30

haha long time since my last post!!!! a month plus ya!!!!! hmmm muz everything starts going smoothly for mi in uni now? though i met some bumps earlier on...hmmmm my participation in tutorials is picking up steAm!!! lolx hmmm, k i sort of criticising pple for not getting their historical facts.... like Nixon and the Watergate Affair....the person gave us a presentation on the United States. She happened to give us an example abt the Watergate Scandal. She said that Nixon was impeached and was forced to leave the office. Hoowever, I have corrected the fact that to avoid impeachment, he left the office at 9 August 1974. In fact, he did not get impeached. Mainly because, President Gerald R Ford pardoned him for his wrongdoings. Geez....an unique political system which the US has....a strong system of government but at the expense of a feeble authority of the executive branch of the govt(to be specific, the President). The lecturer made a very true point the actual power of the President is to persuade. The President will face diffculties implementing new policies if the Congress is opposition-dominated. Ya, electoral college votes are made up of 435 Reps+100Senators+3 from Washington Dc. haha that gives a total of 538 votes. I think that they have a robust system....but i also hope authentic talents will eventually take power. Talents as in competent ones. for sg,............, geeezz, keep it to ourselves den!!! Plato's thinkings ya!!!!

Naeways, haha "craving" for attending occasions ending the word fest haha....dunno y? dunno soon i have to help out at the picnic cheers to all and OUT for mi!!!!

Geez....

2006-03-09T19:30:00.000+10:30

Wth? nv expect to do politics....enrol in a course for tt.....other than tt, nth much to say!!!! work hard for my dreams den outta here bye!!!

Back In Adelaide..........

2006-03-02T15:25:00.000+10:30

wow!!!! did not touch my post for 1 mth!!!! ok i am now back in adelaide!!! did an extreme makeover!!!! hahaa posted it on friendster, the b4 and after pic hahaha as if i am advertising a beauty centre or wat!!!! haha juz like the tv and newspaper advertisement the b4 and after treatment photos!!!!! lolx!!!! the photo is below this paragraph

haha k muz work hard for now haha y? now acquiring tetiary education liao muz work hard to get credit to gain higher chances to succeed in applying postgraduate (the course i aspire for all along) then a job den my aspirations!!!! haha i will prepare myself for tt day to arrive in terms of moulding of characters, unleashing my potential in some areas relevant and also gain more knowledge abt the world.....globalisation, growing interest 4 mi!!!! hmmmm k la outta here

Outing day as usual.....

2006-01-25T04:11:00.000+10:30

Well, outing as usual!!!! not wif don they all, now wif my adelaide mates, clara and leong!!!! watched Le Grand Voyage!!!! Well, the movie sends a strong message to all of us, in my opinion. It is to persevere, be determined in wateva things u set out to achieve..........Dun wait 4 money to drop frm the sky!!!! Well, I will say tt 4 mi, money is not seen as the most significant thing in my life!!! Maybe some do, well i see relationships r far more impt!!!! type more soon, reading this interesting website, cya!!!

Photos.......

2006-01-21T00:44:00.000+10:30

heh, tink i shld post some of the pics taken in adelaide, australia...here it goes!!!!!

ya tt's torrens river!!!! one day, shld take a boat ride down the river!!!

heh, university of adelaide!!!!! adore the place so much!!!! combination of new and gothic buildings.....as u can see, the campus was onli made up these buildings in the past, in the 1800s? ya!!!

imagine this is wat u r going to see in future....environment where angmohs are the majority!!!! not used to it at first when i was walking along the mall, rundle street!!!! not ready to accept the new environment, but now juz as wat many of my seniors have said, glued to the place and alwaes yearn to go back!!!! i at least dun yearn but i did not feel reluctant when coming to tink abt the number of days left 4 my hols in sg!!!! adelaide friens are the ones i realli miss man 4 now!!!! haha can't control my emotion!!!! i am applying red hat of the edward de bono's Six Thinking Hats!!! Critical Thinking.....oh man Greg, like tis person!!!! nice to noe ya, mate!!! see ya soon, cheers!!! Dr Steven, though I alwaes make fun of ya, i alwaes tink u r an understanding lecturer!!! u r a great person, as well!!!! sally and jenny and the rests, the lecturers are gd!!!!! u all will find it weird rite hahaha how can i 4get david also???? david, hmmmm bake cake 4 us!!!! well, all my foundation lecturers symbolise the australian way of teaching, totally different of singaporean way of teaching. australians are not smart academically, but their way of learning are flexible....singapore has many things to learn frm western nations. Make our education system more flexible!!!! our education system is inflexible and tis causes many singaporeans to run away and migrate somewhere else!!!! can the pple do sth abt our education system? I dun wanna say much!!! i juz tink there is sth we can do, and onli thing we can do: Change!!!! some of our systems shld be changed!!!!! China, 4 eg, the old brains are soon going to give way to younger brains. these younger brains studied in western universities and brought new ideas to mould the nation of theirs....u see!!!! well, say no more!!!! keep the rest of my thoughts to myself!!! next photo......

at the governor's party, at the governor of south australia's mansion......causal attire, heeding the advice of my dress code consultant: jason anom!!! fun experience actually!!!! hmmmm....

heh, adelaide hills....cool man!!!! wat a nice scenery!!!! one day, i will take the pic of handorf and also go to barossa valley and test some wines or liquors lolx!

photo taken my balcony, see that building wif a red dot on top? tt is royal adelaide hospital!!!! alwaes pass by there..... imagine u will see tt building 4 another few yrs, oh!!!!

2/3 of the floor I live in.....all rite tt's all 4 now...perhaps some other entries i will post more photos, hu noes the pics will appear on my next post? till then, bye!!!

so many things tt have happened so abruptly....

2006-01-20T03:16:00.000+10:30

well, went to meet mark and talked to him 4 three hrs, i tink.... it was six months since i last saw him..shld have taken a pic wif him and post it here. ya shared some of my views of the world wif him, he told mi i have ideas which signifies pride and eagerness. Enter uni soon, tot it might happen so abruptly, i dunno y? i tink i am still too young....i talked to some pple and realised tt myself and also everyone changes....views of the world....ya i felt my views of the world have changed....the surroundings did not realli change but the feelings abt all the people around u, i mean their views have changed....i at first felt too abrupt and reluctant...but after some enlightenment frm friens i felt better...hmmmm ya and woke up the need to develop my ideology.....haha one day in the decades to come, i might b like emperor haha...jkjk i guess one day i cannot hide frm pple wat i realli tink.....when getting along wif pple i hid everything frm dem....i will say it is a side of myself.....i hid tt side of myself frm others ......once i exposed this side, how would they react? some proves not to be shocked, while did.....i afraid i will lose friens, the thing i would always be afraid of....veri significant haha kind of missing adelaide so much....rundle mall, chinatown, david jones, myers, the shops along north terrace rd....much more.... bradford as well!!!! while in there, i miss sg. den while in sg, i miss adelaide!!!! juz soon after i came back, i felt i have a lot of pple i ought to meet up wif...till now 90% of my list have been checked....time flies....going back soon, all my friens, here i come, the two jasons, hope we will meet up one day in somewhere in aust. i hope tt from inside out. jason , a dear neighbour, a gd listener and advisor, alwaes took up the time to come down to check my assignments, and also gave mi some advice abt some things (u noe wat i am talking abt).... hmmmm in adelaide i learn a lot of stuffs, understand myself more and my inner voice, visions and more!!!! this was the time when my visions got "amplified" ya!!!! there are still so many years left for mi....i havent fulfilled wat i set out to do....k la end here i go sleep bye!!!!

Haha, did a lot of things sia haha....

2006-01-13T22:52:00.000+10:30

Arrrrrr, i juz wanna say tt the blog posted on jan 10, was written a long time b4 the posting date!!!!! did a lot of things b4 the posting date and also after tt!!!! well attended a public lecture, supposedly meant 4 businessmen....at raffles hotel!!!! the attire we were to wear are shirt and tie!!!! it was first time i wore shirt and tie to such an event or ever in my seventeen yrs of life!!!!! i tink if my friens see it they will laugh like siao one!!!! well, den went out wif mr lau and attended my cousin's wedding which was also held at raffles hotel.....ya anyway, pics are posted here and below:

ok, these are the two photos i can provide, errrrr commenting the pics!!!! Lolx i did not smile much haha, and maybe shld have wworn a tie there....haha and sth stuck my mind....tt is remove my specs and wear contacts yayee!!!! haha andy's idea two yrs ago, suggested mi to remove my specs...i got mixed opinions within the yr when i was overseas....some said i look betta without specs and some said a different story lolx!!!! my exit permit is on the way of materialising.....my visa applications are commencing on monday!!!!! yes all rite the start of uni life is starting soon!!!! all the best to all hu are going to uni next yr, don mi and all!!!!! k outta here also gd luck to all taking a level tis yr!!!! bye 4 now

.............

2006-01-10T16:01:00.000+10:30

I found out in life, there are some things tt u shld not do but u ended up doing. These things tt are wrong but you have to commit it in the end. Hmmm, there was one thing tt I shld have gotten 2 yrs ago. However, I missed it coz i did not open my email earlier. What a wasted opportunity, wat my parents said!!!! Readers muz noe tt this event or thing can actually determine whether i am qualified 4 the future career tt I have been yearning 4. Haiz, now, the chance has been diminished...all hopes for tt event to happen have been dashed almost completely- 90 percent. I am not convinced of "such defeat". Chances shattered juz like tt!!!! Haiz, how? I can say tt I have spent 1 yr preparing myself all for this thing to happen but it ended up as nothing.....my effort of acquiring have not been paid off....I juz want a chance to prove in the presence of the people of high authority...tt i can qualified 4 wat i set out to achieve.....Haiz, am I still obsolete??? haiz need time to reflect haiz outta here

Topics of the entry at a mix

2006-01-10T01:05:00.000+10:30

ok, that was the show i have been spnding a week plus to watch!!!! lolx!! Well intend to put this in a blog. It has been 24 days since I have come back to sg. Also, end of 2005 and start of 2006. Commencement of new mentality, hope for the best to come in tis yr. Met don, lormee, some gangs of pple. Many of them have changed so much. Frankly speaking I do not accept pple who have such habits. Anyway, these days I have been "recuperating" from the study stress I have endured in Adelaide. In overall, I wanna say that this 1 year experience overseas is bountiful for me. Why? I begin to acquire more knowledge, regardless of politics, economics, characters and also history. I have certainly improved my level of general knowledge substantially. I am very glad to get to study overseas, I just wanna say that I am gonna rethink on the degrees I am going to pursue soon after I return to Adelaide. There are a lot of things to be looking forward to. I have mailed a proposal to Jenny or Anne regarding the idea of establishing active alumni, replacing the body of the ailing Bradford Student Committee. One of the challenges that hinders the alumni from perpetuating is the commitment of members. Therefore, I thought of introducing incentives to those members. Their relatives will be given special advantage over any other ordinary applicants. For example, lower criteria and lower fees to study at Bradford. I have stated these ideas to Anne. I want to set up this alumnus to help the college in times of any help required. However, I have to admit that I plan to set up the alumni is that I want to try to test my own abilities to lead. Once the plan is approved by Anne, I would be the head of the alumni. I have to mention the alumnus is still far from complete materialisation upon approval. Obligations have to be set within the alumnus. I have asked for some members for their support. For example, John. I have to return to Adelaide in order to take care of this issue. I have to list urge the members that welfare of Bradford College remains the top priority of the alumnus. Once the College calls for help, the alumnus must help provided that it is within the grasp of the alumnus. I would not like to see a recurrence of the NKF issue. T.T.Durai has seemed to forget the motto of NKF and the obligations that a CEO of the NKF has to uphold. Regarding who will take over posts within the alumnus, that is something we have to decide on. At the same time, I will seek for advice on how to run the alumnus well. Well, I wanna study Econs/Finance for 4 yrs but I will have to work hard to change my faculty to Commerce(Accounting). I have no choice but to do that. Frankly, I like to contemplate on economics concepts frequently. I think I know what to do, I would still have the textbooks even if I manage to change to Commerce(Accounting). I can read about the textbooks make notes as if I am still pursuing that degree. I can do my own learning on the area of Economics and Finance. This might be great, I can acquire the ares of Economics, Finance and Accounting. I will continue to buy the 4-yr coursebooks on Economics, Finance. I begin to realis this faculty do not require university lectures but rely on ourselves, our own learning and research. Hmmm, great, that will be settled. Well, talking about now resting and slacking in sg, might not really be the case. Signing up for a club to join, dunno whether can I join to be its member or not. Hopefully I can, I realli wanna be its member. Hmmm another thing is that watching this show called "Han Wu Da Di" about one of the greatest emperors of China Han Wudi. One of the leaders I truly respect, a strong leader, one who supported reforms within the Han dynasty’s constitution. Hmmmm upholding the correct principles of Confucianism. As a result, Han was in a period unprecedented prosperity. The Hans managed to fend off the Jurchens and they managed to expand their control of territories. We truly need the correct etiquette to be applied in our daily life, getting along with others, let alone ruling the empire. Lolx, Confucianism is an area which I ought to research on. Yes, hmm read more magazines like Times and Economists. Hahaha, it can increase my knowledge, let me prepare for the future when I………… Anyway, I begin to realise this point the four key processes in life "moulding your characters, setting up a family, rule your country well, lastly expand your control of power. Power in terms of controlling land within your region. Hmmm ok, to be continued in this entry.

Ok, as for the last stage, I will say that expand the land means to focus on making your career or you yourself famous. Well, you will need to figure it out yourself, my explanation tends to be misleading. To sum it all up, you need to focus on yourself first before talking about focusing on the entire company or nation or a big organisation. Haiz, they are so many things in my mind, waiting to be typed out. I just abruptly find it difficult to find issues to type. Ok, I have said that I wanna be well-versed in finance, economics and accounting. I shall now state others fields that I am interested in. There are Confucianism, Taoism(Lao Zi), Art of War. I also wanna be well-versed in these three ancient masterpieces as well. Let this be my new year resolution shall I? I should say, my resolution is to read about these 3 arts. If I say well versed, it will take up a few years even longer time.

All rite, I have finished watching that Han Wudi. Any thoughts? I will say that I respect him the most out of all the Han emperors. He doubled the size of the Han empire, my respect is crystal clear haha well, I will say that he was able to use the correct talents to rule his empire. His reputation has been promulgated out of the empire to the western regions via the grasslands. However, all of his achievements did not come without a heavy price. He exhausted the coffers of the empire on expeditions, it took the next emperor to replenish the coffers. Ok, still need to research more on it. Well, finally can get to see some of my adelaide friens soon. Clara, leong, maybe kalai, stanley and mark, hopefully meet all of them soon. Clara and leong are soon, lolz, as 4 johore friens, hopefully they can cause the causeway or the second link to look 4 all of us haha!!!! Well, I will write another entry!!!!!

A Uni Student....

2005-12-15T00:35:00.000+10:30

k, wanna say now i have fulfiled the requirements to be a student of the university of adelaide....taking bachelor of economics/finance dunno y they put like tt as if i have to choose between them....can't wait to catch my sg friens, hmmm xinyi and clique, lormee and clique, many more la!!!! hmmm but also found out tt edwin, hellen and jason might leaving adelaide 4 melbourne den jason going to tasmania. den the other one, my neighbour going to sydney. hmmm wanna say this jason helped mi a lot, nice to noe him as a frien plus neighbour.....hmmm 4 john might tink of catching up wif him soon....hmmm both of us r crappy, craps r bloody lame, k 4 my crappy personality all thanks to don and his gangs, kena influenced by him....hmmm k juz wanna say i am uni student soon!!!! and during these 2 months i will prepare myself 4 the brand new tertiary life.... will seek 4 advice frm pple haha!!!! well muz get letter of offer on fri morning b4 i leave 4 the airport on fri....den when i come back i will bring tennis racquets and badminton rackets back, den i will join tennis club in uni haha make myself fitter hmmm haha k end here can celebrate a bit hmmm.....k my mum and sis are back on fri it will be my dad and my turn to take the flights....hmmm i wanna sleep, also hope tt i can ge the letter of offer on the 16 of december in the morning....k ya outta here i will say if i had not made the changes to do double degrees, i might receive the offer, jenny so absent-minded one, tt time i told to put finance as second choice but she did not put it as i have checked wif the uni office....well so exhausted wanna sleep, bye ming chien out of adelaide last blog written in adelaide....zhu ni yo ge (fill in thr blank) put in hen hen hao pen yo...k my hanyu pinyin is deterioating haha k outta here....

argh post some pics here soon....bloody quirky and ugly of mi haha!!!

2005-12-10T21:47:00.000+10:30

hmmm tinking of posting some pics here but i will say soon k, hmmm went out wif jason 2 days ago, den went out wif my cousin on tues to catch harry potter!!!! wth, so late den the movie release in aust. hmmm tues results will be out, quite nervous, trying to "speculate" how much i would get. but i would also control myself frm doing tt!!!! have faith in urself, u can do it!!!! relax!!!! hmmm ya God can help mi!!!1 have faith in Him as well!!!! hmmm anyway, juz 4get wat i said.....back to the topic wanna post some pics here looking thru some and will take more pics wif mi and friens....but it will happen soon when i return to sg ....hmmm wanna go out with even deeper state of euphoria, being much more jubilant hahaha!!!! hmmmm arrrr shld be getting a brown jacket frm jason soon, he is leaving 4 sydney...nice guy a person whom i can pour my questions to.....intellectual discussions wif him....how shld i perceive him??? i will keep it to myself...hmmm well i said when i go out during the days after the exams, my state of euphoria was quite subtle hmmm plan to go out but maybe after the results are out, hope tt i can study commerce accounting at uni adelaide next yr!!!! ya hmmm den 77% and above must be obtained 4 overall average!!!! i say i leave it till the dau itself to know the results!!!! hmmmm well will meet my classmates at the graduation perhaps!!!! keep ur fingers crossed being happy on the day results are released den can go to celebrate wif friens...hopefully!!!! anyway, i juz wanna meet a lot of pple b4 i go back to sg hahaha dun worry will get a lot of chance!!! hmmmm k end here

End of exams!!!! anxiety isn't the onli word tt appears in my dictionary!!!

2005-12-01T20:40:00.000+10:30

well haha my 20th post lolx rejoice together wif marking the end of exams!!! one more thing my dad is coming tmr!!! haha yayee long time did not see my dad liao, hmmmm!!!!! ok end of exams but the results??? hmm wanna get to uni!!!! hmmm see can or not? either going to commerce or finance, hopefully i can get to uni!!! hmmm well, tinking of watching harry potter tmr? wif john and see got others mah lor!!!! hmmm 1st movie since i last watched it wif hansen!!!! hmmm the movie already shown in sg so long ago, now den come out in aust. hmmm wanna go watch!!! growing goosebumps when it comes to watching movies!!!! hmmm errrr, dunno wat to say!!!! juz drop by to pour in a couple of thoughts in my mind rite now!!!! exams are over, the no. of days to go back is lessening....well, can't wait to see my friens andy don tzepeng edwin davin and more, xinyi and her gangs as well.....hmmmm my feelings are at a mix regarding going back sg...miss my friens here in adelaide as well, we already get along wif one another 4 one month hopefully, we can meet up when we r back frm our respective countries!!!! hmmm wat to write...wanna write a poem or wat....tok abt teachers...hmmm greg an affable person and discuss wif him abt so many stuffs, especially tt we have the same area of interest...steven, he is a bit siao, veri sarcastic, tinking tt his jokes are funny but they arent, but he is an understanding gives students a lot of leeways....something which is worth to be commended on!!!! den erm, david a great person as well, miranda hmmm no comments, sally is also great, willing to crack jokes wif us, having a great time when attending her lessons, no terror....no trauma hahaha!!!!!the yr has passed and time passed so fast time to spend the rest of the dec back in sg and also chinese new yr!!!! saying gdbye to bradford, and going 4 tertiary education: university!!!! i tink i can do it get into uni and do a course i like YA!!! hmmmm, wanna write a rhythem or a song or a poem or anything u call it, maybe summarising a yr here in adelaide!!!!

Jan 8, looking at the plane's window, leaving ground 4 adelaide!!!!
Adventurous spirit overpowered my mind and emotions during my first few days,

den days passed when i felt homesick, missing my friens and relatives,
knowing friens here offset this strong emotion of mine....this emotion eased a month later,
assignments den begin to pile in,
to an insurmountable level,
i almost broke down and gave up,
but i persevere to do the assignments as well as possible,
but still retain some portion of my slacking spirit,
everything goes on like this until now,
exams draw an end to my 1 yr foundation course,
wat is my future, uni??
dunno but i will say is uni, yes uni!!!!
time flies past and 1 yr is going to go by,
my crush, studies and more thoughts, flashed past my mind
4 tis one yr, wat's next other than going back and meetup wif friens?
eat and sleep but most significantly is to keep fit and happy!!!!

all rite end here, first time writing like tt, pls pardon mi!!! hmmm wanna change my blogskin, someone give an advice pls, how to change it to an oven more glamorous one someone tell mi!!!!! well anywaes outta here!!!!

Two down, two to go

2005-11-28T17:33:00.000+10:30

2day exams!!! need the exam stress-busters hahaha well, i will say tt maths studies okok lor can moderate is gd la, some parts ta tao how to do? like tt hmmm well, critical thinking i dunno y i was filled wif confidence regarding tis subject, hmmmm k end here 1st i shall write again when exams r over....

Haiz....

2005-11-25T14:53:00.000+10:30

First, a few days left to exams
Second, rmb tt i had a dream a few days ago
Third, so boring, my dad coming next fri, 7 days frm now.....

Like to address the second thing, i dreamt tt i was actually back in sg, walking all the way to people's park to see my aunt....hmmm at tt moment i was not tinking abt anybody, friens in sg or wat juz tot of walking all the way and past many shopping malls on the way frm the outram park mrt hahaha.....wat a quirky dream i had!!! haha can i have another dream again? wat a weird dream i have had but at least i like to have another dream like tt once again haha, tis time wanna dream of walking wif all my friens at orchard rd....juz as wat i have said in my last few posts!!! rock and roll at orchard rd!!!! haha hmmmm looking forward to 16th dec 12.55pm haha!!!! k end here

This is my life results, in overall okok lor....

2005-11-23T13:52:00.001+10:30

Here Are Your Results:
Life:
6.7
Mind:
7
Body:
8.6
Spirit:
7.3
Friends/Family:
5.3
Love:
2.9
Finance:
4.8

Your Life Analysis:Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score leaves room for improvement. You can make changes to improve your trouble areas, and this will bring you greater satisfaction. Focus on your weakest points and set about to change them. Do not delay your happiness and success. (Read more on improving your life) Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the mind. Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have an excellent body score, which means you are incredibly focused on maintaining a healthy lifestyle. Continue in that focus, and your body will remain healthy and strong. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the body. Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score is relatively high, which means you are rewarded by your beliefs. Spirituality is clearly important to do. Never let it slip, and continue to learn and grow. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the spirit. Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score is not bad but can be improved. Maintain your current social net, while you try to expand it. Try new things and form new friendships. You will be rewarded greatly.Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. There is love out there for you. Seek the advice of wise people on how to go about finding it. Do not lose hope. Read advice from other quiz-takers on finding and maintaining love. Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. Your financial score indicates some trouble. Raise your score over time by making changes which will lead to greater prosperity in the future. Be sure to live within your means today. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving your finances. Take a look at the new myYearbook.com community.

sianz....5 days or 4 days to exams....

2005-11-23T13:18:00.000+10:30

muz pia until siao liao, haha long time no use singlish until the time when i chatted wif don over the phone. toking abt the happy memories we used to have had....haha hmmm well, wanna play lan games when i go back....i wanna do many stuffs including things tt i have done in sg but i did not do it here.....hmmm these are the things u all need to infer haha....of coz, all the bradford mates!!! might call some of the pple frm JB to meet up at orchard....still considering? ya haha errrrr, ya so many things i have to do when i go back, treat pple la etc. hmmmm, still got wat to say? ha, the execution of van nyugen? hmmm, serve him rite....shldn't let the mata in sg saw his drygs ma...or shldn't carry drugs in the first place....dun commit such a foolish crime in sg!!! u shld noe u will get executed in sg mah, den now u cause the aussie govt to try to plead 4 clemency....i hate foreigners interfering wif our laws man!!!! toking abt human rights, u noe we dun tok abt tis!!!! haha well, at first feel bad abt the idea of executing him but it is necessary to enforce the law and warn others not to commit drug trafficking in sg....read this article abt sg being an authoritarian society....i tink this is crao, veri effective lor, can impose law and order on the country....actually different countries have different ways of ruling wat....outrageous to make use of tis opportunity by th aussie to question our law and our style of dealing wif offenders. yes, aussie reasoned tt he shld not be executed coz, he was mearnt to carry it to aust. and not sg....but hey, they were spotted in sg....tt's definite...toking abt cooperation between nations to curb drug trafficking hey, tis is cooperation, preventing drugs frm entering the aussie soil....one truth tt is undeniable is tt u all aussies tend to carry drugs around the region and get caught....also trying to make pple feel sympathetic 4 u? wat kind of logic is tis? k, if u pardon van nyugen, wat will happen if he is recalcetrant? huh? hu ask sg to have such a consequence 4 all drug offeenders? tis is fact, it was spotted in sg, the person will be punished under the law of the country where he was arrested....den wat if we pardon him? the ans is the law and order will be insurmountable to enforce anymore...tis will cause a loophole in sg's law....all offenders and even others (singaporeans and foreigners) will question: hey u have pardoned someone, y dun u pardon mi as well? and everyone will argue tt will be unfair....ok tt's our way to enfore law of anti-drugs: death and nth.....den accept it to everyone, put yourselves in sg's shoes ok? well, i betta go study i will contemplate abt tis soon...haha k outta here!!!

A Day of Reminiscience.....

2005-11-21T23:11:00.000+10:30

hmmm i shall mark 2day as end of assignment and get to study day....haha 2day submitted critical thinking assignment, spent the entire morning editing the essay and doing bibliography, do everything in accordance with jason's suggestion. thanks jason, i can foresee that i will get good marks 4 my essay and also 4 all my overall 5 subjects....tis day will alwaes be remembered and i will get cracking after blogging.....hmmm not in a mood to study 4 a while....i need the motivation to study, though did well 4 o's, still inadequate. well, rest 4 a while after submitting my assignment in the first day of swotvac. end of lessons, but anticipating the arrival of examinations....i will do well 4 all my exams...i said it i mean it.....den followed by euphoria and parties or wateva... wanna catch harry the pot....sianz i tink b4 returning to sg muz withdraw some money to spend in sg so tt can have money to treat pple swensens...treat hu ar? see: lormee and friens, andy, don....these are the pple i tink of....davin and ed? wanna meet u all but let go all together treat it as a 4g 2004 gathering ya? it's been 1 yr since i last stepped foot on orchard rd....sg post, parkway or maris stella high school...oh god, a day of reminiscience indeed, being reminiscient now, having flashbacks when andy, don and i treated one another ice-cream, coffee-bean, makan at mac, go gym together....also rmb treating lormee, don and lormee's friens at swensens...oh my god, bloody awkward tt day man!!! making a fool of myself with spiked hair haha....well at least gained experience frm the "hazard training" (andy call one) haha....but nv apply now, shld do it but have to consider a lot of consequences b4 executing the necessary actions....anywaes, hmmm after exam feel like playing lan games, see if can go frien's house and play generals...hmmm and also make an "official" visit to hosanna heights? see abt tt...havent finished exams yet and cared abt playing hmmmm.....life is like tt i like to leap over the tense days of studies or hard work ahead to tink of stuffs tt happen a lot later....hmmm how to describe such life? hmmm absurd or quirky...have not touched on singlish 4 a long ago, yesterday don called mi and we had a chat 4 over 15 min. tok abt our happy memories....funny there was once when i visited don's church (st. wesley church) den the speaker was far in front of the stage and asked 4 a show of hands of those hu were new comers. I reaised mi hands, when she asked 4 my name...I went "ermmmmmm", wat happened actually, was i at a loss 4 words or my mind went blank not knowing Koh Ming Chien is my name? hmmm haha one of the events down the memory lane... hmmm alrite now back to 2005, the joke of "police come catch u" dun wish to tok abt it here, but john and mi were laughing like hell.....hmmm tense moment of exams, Work Hard, Koh Ming Chien...? If U wanna get into uni, do work hard!!!! Which of the 2 outcomes do u want- K.M.C going to uni in 2006 or K.M.C bidding 4 uni admission failed? Therefore, muz work hard....Add Oil, Ming Chien, u have come so far to aust, cant afford to fail to get into uni now....work hard!!!!!

End of college....followed by swotvac and exams...

2005-11-19T00:30:00.000+10:30

today is marked the end of my education at bradford college, nowadays i wonder i abruptly get so friendly and kind specially....realli i nv get so kind to an unprecedented level sia!!!!! wonder wat has happened? well to the topic, my life at bradford is certainly filled wif ups and downs. one yr of forging friendship, it is certainly lucrative 4 mi....imprudent to say tt i have not learnt anything frm my 1-yr stay in aust. abruptly, time brought mi back to 8 Jan 2005, I went out with Kevin, still possessing the adventurous spirit, wanting to see how adelaide was like....generally, adelaide is a simple and peaceful city unlike cities like sydney and mel. where don and andy r in respectively la....these cities are quite happening or dynamic i say....haha miss andy's ps games, and the movies we watched hahaha.....don wanna go ur house swim!!!! haha anyway back to 8 Jan 2005, Kevin and I went out play lan games and the last person to bid mi farewell.....den went home to pack up, or final check on my luggages hmmmm....den went to the airport and my relatives, uncles and aunties, went to send mi off.....felt the expectations they have of mi.....if pple reading tis, say i was pressurised...u r wrong...hmmm, changi airport....well, den i entered the departure gates...bidded goodbye to my relatives, hugged them, i rmb i had a feeling tt how gd and comfortable i would be when i were to have a gf to hug....(errrr...pretend i did not say it). first time, coming to a foreign soil to study, at first miss sg so much....but the situation was alleviated eventually. Then I stepped in the hotel room in adelaide, i was still in a holiday mood. still not conscious that i was actually going to stay here 4 1 yr. omg....miss sg so much, can't wait to see ur friens in sg again, i also have considered meetups wif my bradford friens to meet in sg....Returning to the present, i have one responsibility to shoulder or to fulfil----do well 4 exams and get into uni. hmmm, i muz and will succeed. I will make sure, i do well....hmmmm one of the benefits of coming here is tt i get to contemplate ab many things...getting more matured in terms of mentality...those pple reading, dun laugh ar...hhaahaha a yr of skool has ended so briskly as if the first day of orientation juz happened yesterday. hmmmm, exhausted, lazy to type liao, k outta here....

Aussie won....england shall win world cup next yr haha...

2005-11-16T23:13:00.000+10:30

woohooo, aussie qualifies for world cup, not wanting to clinch the cup nxt yr, i still support england, my favourite team, most pple support england sia...coz of the continual broadcast of EPL in sg haha, yayee when go back can watch league matches liao, have espn yayeee!!!! not realli ecstatic after watching the aussie win...but i prefer them to the opponents(loser mi, dunno how to spell the country's name)....miss the epl matches so much, man utd matches, clara, gurvir and gang, u all gd la have foxtel can watch matches....haha tt all wat i wanna say, no energy to type liao
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Heaps of assignments...

2005-11-14T21:46:00.000+10:30

basket....bloody loads of assignments to do man...econs 2 more assignments to go and also critical thinking, the progress is still unacceptable, so sianz.....y dun the teachers give us students a break and let us study 4 exams....speechless....i am at a loss for words.....haix, well i juz prove tt i can do anything well, den i go study 4 exams, after tt, guess wat? it will be enjoyment time, rejoicing by tt time yayee.....well betta get cracking....

UPDATES....

2005-11-14T21:17:00.000+10:30

NEWS UPDATES: Koh Ming Chien will be back in Singapore on the 16th of December, when he is back, he will rock everyone's house......So be prepared.....this includes, "rock and roll" at orchard rd and other shopping malls in sg wif batches of friens. So to his friens hu are reading this, pls take note....Second NEWS UPDATES, K.M.C will be releasing his post(MY Aspirations Part 2) soon, pls wait patiently!!!!(END OF NEWS UPDATES)

But 4 the time-being, he has tons of assignments to do and preparing 4 his exams.....followed by the deep state of euphoria and parties....ahhahahaha

My aspirations......(PArt 1)

2005-11-11T14:46:00.000+10:30

k la 2day i decide to tok abt my aspirations as a politician. perhaps many pple will ask y i wanna be one???? well, i tink tt it is the onli way to contribute to ur society which u r belong to....4 mi it's the place where i was born and grew up 4 16 yrs- sg. still reading abt this bk: My Life by Bill Clinton.....toking abt his story when he was born until he stepped down as President of the United States.... many pple like greg detested him so much or perhaps all presidents except Franklin Delano Roosevelt... i was inspired by tis President as he and i may have goals in common or also events....when he was at the age of seventeen, he met President Kennedy....which was inspired by him as well...... in 1963 when he was assasinated, Clinton himself was so shocked upon hearing the news....couldnt accept...the meeting with him a few months which seemed as juz now, and "now" he was dead....tis is wat typical citizens shld feel, the loss of a leader at tt point of time, the nation juz becomes so helpless without a leader.....i can understand to some extent.....i desperately ask my self all along this yr in aust. wat is like to be a leader of a nation???? k la, hueva have read this blog will scoff, a typical 17 yr old boi dun tink so far like wat is it like being a leader.....or how to become a leader.....the ans i have found so far are charisma, mettle, sense of imagination and reality. I might still have yet to digest or fully understand these personalities. Qualifications are still veri significant to be one but as Lee Kuan Yew has said, qualifications or degrees are onli one point of analysis, most significantly, are ur personalities, do they make you have wat it takes to be a politician.....Looking at all the prominent leaders in the world including Lee Kuan Yew, they have devoted all energy to the nation-building process.....giving so much of themselves, growing white hair comes together wif it....for eg, Lee Kuan Yew, from 1959 when he was PM, he was filled wif black hairs, but in 1990 he was filled wif streaks of white hairs, as u can see....giving so much of urself....his son Lee Hsien Loong, last yr when he was filled wif glowing youth, ready to take on the job, but gradually, when seeing him on National Day Message, he seemed to have been assuming the post for a few yrs. Saw streaks of white hairs on his fringe, but also entirely his apperance how he looked, he looked quite weak than last yr when he was sworn in....asking mi abtmy opinions of the Prime Ministers of Singapore , I will ask I respect them all, especially Lee Kuan Yew, without him, Singapore will not have wat it have today....I truly repect tis person, I believe fervourly tt all Singaporeans will endorse this above statement...or advocate it when necessary....He lay the foundation for Singapore's economy...then Goh Chok Tong, he led all Singaporeans to brave through the financial crisis in 1997, tt was the worst time in history, later den he had to resolve insurmountable problems such as SARS, 2001 economic slowdown and the arrest of J.I network(i.e tis might expose Singapore's vulnerability to terrorism)...however, we did not give in to these problems, but we faced it wif courage and determination to succeed. In the end, we did succeed. den Lee Hsien Loong, he promotes a bright new society for allyounger Singaporeans which allow them to adapt to this environment....liberal society...overall, Singapore has achieved robust economic growth since 1965.....we have SAF, which is strong and tested and allowed to us to sleep peacefully at night....we have achieved all these fundamentals...wat's next a gradual decline or the continuous/unprecedented growth of prosperity. For now, I have one hing to say: We dun noe, but we have to make a difference and change Singapore to make it brand new....A brand new Singapore is the answer to unprecedented prosperity, quick response to the world market, manufacturing and stuffs. In other words, the future is ours to make...let us reah out for the sky, we will suceed as one Singapore(united Singapore), juz like how we survive and prosper after the separation wif Malaysia in 1965 and also other crisis. We muz not be complacent wif wat we have, I will say when I grow up, suitable age to serve 4 my country....I will not let such golden achievements or efforts of our forefathers go to the drain.... As long as I am alive, I will preserve or strengthen this prosperity we have......I will and I promise....another question popped out of my mind, can Singapore survive without any hinterland? My answer to tis is yes, we can and we have. Have in wat sense? We have survived 4 40 yrs, can u imagine no one anticipate us to survive, a fledgling country wif no natural resources, no armed forces and many others. However, over tis 40 yrs, we have proved them worong, we prospered and be one of the highest GDP per capita in the world, a leader in terms of economy of the entire South-East Asia. I will maintain Singapore's position and significance in thr region, I will and I promise. Now, till then, I shall introduce my resolutions for my Singapore in mind, I will strive to make Singapore a second New York City. Yes, it is certainly possible but how? Make Singapore competitive in terms of economy and toursm attactions. Yes it is easily said than done, how???? Well, juz like wat PM Lee has said, remake the entire Singapore, remake our city......plans have been drawn out to remake this city-state of 4.4 million pple, including the building of bayfronts.....or wat hhaha, we have our veri own Statue of Liberty.....main attraction of New York.....ya remake our city....k la end here Part 2 will be posted soon..outta here...

"There are things money can't buy, but there are also things you cannot buy without money."

2005-11-07T15:14:00.000+10:30

reiterating this so many times, 3 more wks to exams, den unofficial hols will commence 4 mi haha, well spent most of my posts, describing from lovesick to career-minded mi. this post shld tok abt sth else rite. ya so i decide to tok abt life or philosophy of life. haha, a few weeks ago, my cousin and i were at the balcony toking abt life. she did enlighten mi, she told mi one of her fulfilments in life is to master martial arts (i.e judo and taekwondo) she has black belt 4 taekwondo. talking abt almost everything tt day, she sum up den told mi to find a sense of satisfaction, finding sth to do to make urself rejoice or be in a state of euphoria if u put it tt other way, instead of sorrows. There is tis example when a wealthy person hu have the redundant wealth to buy the entiire world, but to describe his emotions, u can describe with the word"bankrupt". In other words, this rich man has the money to buy the world but did not have the luck to enjoy life. He just could not find any satisfaction in life. As long as there is satisfaction in life, you have led a happy though simple life. Put it another way, a man who is penniless is able to lead a happy life. tt's because he is able to find satisfaction in life. Compare to the wealthy man, the poor man tinks tt if he can survive a day, he will be fortunate for what God has given him. Whereas, for the rich man, his heart and emotions are alwaes filled wif greed, thinking of how to earn more money to collect and put it in his treasury or watsoeva. Therefore, the moral of the story is to enjoy life, find satisfaction in life. I shall create a saying tt "There are things money can't buy, but there are also things you cannot buy without money." It's logical.....u can't buy genuine friendship or love or family warmth.... Come to tink of it, there are many things i have not fulfilled in life, to meet Ministers(a long dream maybe ending wif reality hahaha), i wanna play tennis, gd sports to play well muz play the hols or after exams to play haha, or basically enjoy life on the basis of a typical 17-year old boi. i have contemplated a few months ago wat are the fulfilments as a 17-year old boi, at first i tot having relationships??? now tinking of it, it is quite ridiculous. actually, u can play or enjoy sports like tennis at the age of 17. So enjoy life and be rejoiceful of ur life. though there is still a long long way to go 4 mi, a life filled wif oblivious achievements or setdowns. shld make full use of it and enjoy it.......k la outta here but sian ku hou tian muz go study den enjoy, betta resume the "deadliest revision" soon in order to perpetuate my golden achievements for my o's on par eif roy L1R5 of 12...yeye perpetuate in terms of gd results.......so gd luck to all studying, congrats to those hu got promoted to jc2....k outta here

few more weeks to the cliffhanging moment...

2005-11-05T23:34:00.000+10:30

few more weeks to the exams.......did a specimen paper 2day, plan to do one tmr....haha more and more things.....come to tink of it, maybe i will have to turn in late for the rest of my days.....4 econs i have great ideas abt the concepts....need to do those application questions.....i detest dr steven....in terms of his jokes...his jokes are damn lame, and his gumooo figure and i feel like bashing him up....i juz say gd day mate.....den he buay tahan liao, gave the lamest story or excuses of all times- getting pimped in penang. come to tink of it, the pimp muz have a bad taste....rmb my sg teacher mr ragu, every1 said the word "alrite" to kajiao him and nth happens he quite nice. compared to our gd old steve.....hu buay tahan so easily detest tis person so much coz of his dumbest and lamest jokes of all times, perhaps the dumbest and lamest jokes i evr heard of my entire 17 yrs of life lolz....gurvir agree wif mi one....one more ting, man utd play chelsea. chelsea no injured players but man utd baniak injured players sia how to win or play ar???? die liao i want man utd to win dearly.....k la stop here

contemplating abt more stuffs....

2005-11-04T22:45:00.000+10:30

was getting a bit pissed off.....well maybe a bit unsatisfied wif my presentaion's marks. it was satisfactory but could have done well for my bibliography.....suddenly, contemplating abt wat leadership is all abt....stanley told tt day when he drove mi home frm my birthday party place.....leadership is to lead, leader do not need to be publicly known to be leading.....as long as u take the backbench...the leader in name is following ur mentality or doctrines to lead the crowds....u r considered a spiritual leader, dun need to lead but the followers follow u.....still need time to digest all these stuffs......anyways, feeling a bit tense for my exams and also cant figure out my friend's email.....the email is veri significant to mi i muz find mi, provides mi a chance to pursue my aspirations.........k la tt's all feel like sleeping outta here...

everything comes to light.....

2005-11-01T23:04:00.000+10:30

k these days, get to noe so many things including ur own personalities frm other pple's perspectives....k dun wanna say more, coz it's quite bad or not realli depending on how i put it.... fortunately, u find out tt these friends still stand by ur side, supporting u, doreen is one, those i did not mention do not mean i dun trust u, but tt i dun have the energy to type names....friendship shld be like this, i alwaes tink tt Heaven is fair, bless mi wif supportive friends all along hahaha....but the difference is tt i get more and more matured abt stuffs, regarding my career or studies or watsoeva, i tink tt after two days of "debate", it is redundant to continue. well, juz wait for the results.....Though I am a free thinker, my friend davin alwaes told mi tt God has plans for every of us....have faith in Him. I tot tt he certainly has a pt, i tot dun alwaes contemplate on such stuffs, leave it to Fate to decide....hu noes wat will happen.... He has certainly treat me kind-heartedly, bless with so many stuffs....anywaes, i juz hope tt these friends would not betray my trust....if they do,.....(to be continued)....

veri veri depressed...the usual self has been gone or overshadowed...

2005-10-23T21:38:00.000+09:30

went to mai's party yesterday den to temple, supposedly in high spirits, juz a mere lovesick threshold has caused mi to lose my tantrum so easily, can't believe it, becoz of a gal tt i like and tink of, caused mi to lose temper and gave "barbaric" comments.....juz felt veri furious when my anger has been sparked.....lovesick, i dun want to tink abt her one, can't help it it was as if so terrible tt i cant live without her like tt, onli her can control my everything or wat, anyone reading this and mi myself will certainly scoff, weird stuffs to type abt rite, but it's true man, certainly authentic!!!! where is the normal ming chien hu alwaes like to be cheerful and smile? where is him, i have to find him....or wat nowadays, i alwaes put on a wide mask of smiles but inside mi was filled wif gloominess and depression....wat happens to mi...is this the outcome of the burdens of lovesickness and studies.....17 yrs old hu have to suffer such kind of torment!!! veri harsh, wat is the prob man???? now, i lose the control over my emotions, haiz well i will need to tt usually cheerful ming chien(xiao ming) back, where is him????

alwaes a 17????

2005-10-16T20:03:00.000+09:30

haiz woke up early, so sianz no kids to teach, taught mandarin supposedly, mood getting better and better day by day.... feel the calmness in my mind, at least i would not explode, pimples did not burst out would be the best gift 4 mi....studied econs there in a quiet room without any single echoes, frm inflation to unemployment den to macroecons haha so many concepts to memorize, racking my brain to link these concepts to the logics....k having to meet kok leong soon on wed....long time no go out since we knew each other at flinders.... going to have coffee wif him and blah blah and all the convos we are going to have, nice person he is actually i tink, no intution but tis is how i think....well made mi tink of hai kiat.....not sure abt him he sort of veri insecure wif friendship...i wanted to help him, tell him dun piss pple off so easily by calling pple frequently...occasionally is okay....anywaes, 2day went to help out somewhere in the kitchen, might be due to my misinterpretation of xiaoping's instructions or she did not spread her message coherently, i did not do wat she wanted mi to do....did not get lectured onli got laughed at hahaha, suddenly rmb the blur mi last yr, in class veri reputable 4 being blur....tyco get through to sec 4 and tyco did well 4 o level with 12, haha having flashbacks "increasingly these days" weird siaz, wat on earth man? alwaes a 17? have i matured or getting even more like children...last yr cared abt going out wif my gang of pple, especially the days of "hazard training", not saying dun care about studies la but having the mettle to study but can't get over myself? a boy or young gentleman hu has no tots or wat so eva has now changed into someone hu alwaes tink so much, tinkng byond the present times....lolz...maybe tt is my personality, will be permanent...hahaha k tt's all, not gd at blogging, especially 4 my templates need krisna's help ar hahah....i want a change to my blogskin and add tagboard..haiz enough abt typing, out of here

resolutions.....

2005-10-15T21:36:00.000+09:30

haha 2day slacking the first weekend of term 4, do wat watch tv (cricket and documentry stuffs)....sent the interest to attend the governor's party next friday: mua and my friend(mate) Jason. wonder the person respond or not....counting down to the days of reunion wif andy and don and gang.....all of us have changed or have we? don still obsessed wif kim wakerman, wonder andy still obsessed wif the bloody dutch...rmb he went to brash braza(did i get tt spelling rite?) to buy dutch jersey haha...den i got home late 4 tt tution of mine, den my tutor asked to have a gd rest den said ciao.....if pple at my age reading this blog, they will say the tutor pang seh mi. hahaha veri spasticated....juz a brain wave struck mi, causing mi having reminiscience of last yr....thinking tt veri insurmountable to get lotsa close friends but easy to get hi-bye friends(wat weiqi called it) made up of acquintance and casual friends. do they bear the same meaning? nvm heck care....ya tt's the pt....anywaes resolutions, trying to find resolutions to resolve the menace tt i mentioned on my posts....at least bring the euphoria to my "life" or at least clear my bewildered mind....y like tt ar, come here not all happy one not smiling everyday as in sg, not as cheerful as b4 haha....nvm at least i have generated resolutions(not ripe yet) hahaha soon it will be materialized.....day by day going by wonder wat happens to the world where i lived in 4 16 yrs and wat it will be like when i go back there...all i noe is i am meeting many friends there(regardless of bradford ones but also all others)

haha day.....

2005-10-14T18:44:00.000+09:30

veri distraught yesterday, being so eccentric, thinking of stuffs tt a typical 17-year old boy dun tink of. Haiz, 2day damn special go skool at 8am, watch this bollywood movie "monsoon wedding", one character likes to eat flowers as if he eats it for three meals a day, wth!!!!! den have maths lesson....after skool go 4 a seminar abt applying 4 PR wif kalai and lawrence....actually tink tt the seminar is pathetic to mi....nth much also go there take notes and ciao liao, at first tot dun want apply PR one but for benefits of some pple, den go see see lor.....haha the funniest part is here....i was sitting at the centre, lawrence on my right and kalai on my left. lawrence busily taking down notes, i just sit there and listen while kalai went to sleep haha....kalai keep asking mi how many slides more...lolz imagine lawrence and kalai belong to 2 different extremes frm enthusiastic to sleeping(not paying attention)....come to tink of it.....lawrence is like caring abt applying 4 PR in future, while kalai onli cared abt quenching his exhaustion or generating more energy 4 the long walk to cinatown after the seminar.... heed 3dwin's advice yesterday, thinking abt it in depth and felt much better 2day haha....a happy full spot to the first week of the last term...

sianz....

2005-10-13T22:28:00.000+09:30

haiz....a day of boring....pissed off by things tt causes mi to get paranoid....paranoid about so many things, feeling better now, haiz 6 weeks to go to SWOTVAC...thinking of so many things since this yr, last yr i felt so carefree, maybe i shld say this yr i am much jyu an si wei haha thinking of the dangers even though i am in a safe position...how to say man....am i problematic these days or wat..feel so inferior or relieved....if it is relieved, wat is it abt? lawrence said he had not seen mi going out wif gals b4 wat the prob? well studies, another thing to worry about, my parents exerting pressure on mi, causing detrimental effects on mi.....i noe tt they have high expectations of mi but tt adds a load of burden i need to carry....will i rate the effect of this burden "CATASTROPHIC"......sometimes hearing about my mum's nagging about gals and relationship made mi feel veri sianx...feel tt i am in a dilemma rite now shld i give up a relationship or pursue it?

66 days to go back to sg, back to meet my sg friens, i had this mentality tt i shld go back sg this dec and i have den have 2 mths to get "relationship" or wat, but i am confused now wif my feelings and so many stuffs....contemplating these days, other than this and studies, there are so many things i have been contemplating about haiz....dilemmaa.......i am outta here....